She said she does not have the money to eat big for the mentors' birthday, she wants to save her money to last her till the 23. But there she is spending her time and most probably money in Mv. Spending her money on food and/or as she mentioned before leaving..jeans. She just messaged me telling she will be late and spending more time in MV. So is that not having money and wanting to save money? Yeah right. Let us see if she comes back with plastic bags. Lots of them.
*sigh*
Just wanted to get that off me. Ever since coming back from CH, I feel bad tempered, most probably because of the flu, but I think also because I saw what my so called friends are really while out in the open. They are selfish, stuck up people with nothing else in their minds except their own self and pleasure, minta puji and think that they are all better than others. Hell this all started from before CH but at the camping. I can take care of myself, but of course everyone needs friends, but where was mine? Off by themselves, not bringing me in with them. Fine, I survived camping but I did saw what they really are.
I might have not behaved well myself but does that make it all right for them all to alienate me? The first night I had only an hour and 15 minutes sleep, roughly. I went inside our camp at 4.15 am and woke up at 5.30 am or so to prepare to go to Moral at 6 am. Then I had to stay up again till 1 am to do sentry?? Yeah right, I am tired and drowsy and pissed off!! Why did I stayed up late anyway on the first night? To do the stupid gerbang. Sure it shouldn't have been put off till late at night but we had no time to do it. We did have time in the afternoon but A told us to put it down. So we did. Then others put it up but it looked awful, so we redid it again and that was why we stayed up late. We did try to round up a few help but no one wanted to help. And the few help that we got, later on they went to sleep. Only a handful of us was up, helping. Me, A, P (my roommate), C, S and B. B was the commander, and he told us that we didn't have to stay up late tomorrow night. So I was pissed when I was told to stay up till 1 am. I wanted my sleep, I was barely working or standing. When I tried to tell the others my reason for not wanting to do sentry, none of them wanted to listen! Well, I just went to sleep. At 1 am I woke up again and heard them talk about who is doing what time for sentry. They mentioned my name for 3 am. WHAT?? I want to sleep. Fine, just wake me up then when the time comes but no one woke me up. Around 5 am I woke up and heard them talking about no one helping M to cook breakfast. So I got up and went to help and the atmosphere I felt there was cold...I just kept my mouth shut.
The second incident was when taking water. Me, P and A went to take water in 2 big gallons. When we arrived at the place, P said she wanted to pee, so she left. A and me filled up both gallons, then I had to pee. So I told A and she told me to go, so I went. The toilet was full (only 4) but I really need to pee. So I waited in line (I was next after the girl in the toilet). After I was done I went out and the gallons was not there. P was still in the toilet because she said she wanted to do number 2, so I left and went back to camp. Both gallons was there and when I went to search for A to tell her sorry, she did not want to listen. And the rest that helped her also did not want to look at me nor talk to me. So fine, I just kept quiet. But I feel hurt of course. I guess I was wrong to pee when I had to pee. After that they were all very cold at me.
Fine. I ignored them as well, as much as I could.
In CH, the same feeling, though I feel much more relaxed. I did not bring my wet towel because well it was wet, there were only 2 towels at the hotel, one go to P another to E. So I had to use my sarong for a towel. Worked out fine. Though a bit pissed off when the towel was grabbed from my hand the first day. Fine.
I forgot to bring my Broadband, was dizzy, still tired from camping, felt like I was coming down with flu with the cold and tiredness. Wanted to eat pork the first day there at CH, since it had been quite a while but since Y was following and she is not a pork eater, we/I could not. She was even mad at me for mentioning it. Goodness, I only mentioned the shop name which is Chinese, got steamboat and seafood and hinted that perhaps they have pork, and she was mad at me!? Duiiii....janganlah ikut, and bukannya saya bawa ko p makan sana budu!!
Last last, went to eat at Malay shop, tomyam and egg with white rice. Why?? Because of Y la what else...shit
Goodness I am tired and still have runny nose. Will resume this ranting session later tomorrow.
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