Sat Morn

so here it is, Sat morning hoping for everything to be better than yesterday. it started out not very badly but not very good as well. expectations were not met. i guess better to not have high expectations or to have no expectations at all to better take care of the heart.

or maybe i just want more, more more more. more before the time ends. but i have no luck this weekend for more, there is one sat left next week, better to not expect too much or not expect anything at all. but i do have to return some stuffs, so a fleeting meeting is all i can have, even though i was offered a fleeting meeting this morn, i could not accept, for fear of missing too much later on.

i apologized for wanting too much, for expecting too much, for thinking that i, at least, have a small place in a busy schedule, although busy, but the time for meeting is not just to pass some stuff and leave, without a hug or some physical touching. there it is, my side of wanting some romance in my life, making myself miserable for not having it when i so yearned for it, miss it. but i could not have it, so maybe next time, somewhere in the future.

after this, i will not be miserable, i will try to have fun, even with superficial people.