You can do it! :)

-I just realize this morning that we missed our monthly anniversary. Should be one year and one month this month.

-I miss him a lot. I called several times last night but nothing at all. I gave up calling and tried to read to put myself to sleep and not to think too much about it, else I would become more sad and angry, mostly at myself for letting myself become sad and feeling needy, unloved and not important enough to be remembered.

-I’m sorry for being needy and clingy and bothering you with my calls.

-I was hurt when he said it’s not great that every time he calls I would be angry with him.

-I feel angry with myself.

-I feel like crap

-Maybe I am crap

-Yeah I’m getting depressed.

-To try to get myself not depressed, I wrote ‘You can do it!’ with a smiley face on a sticky note and stuck it on the PC at work. I feel like ripping it off and cutting it to small pieces.

-I hate being depressed, all weird thoughts swimming in my head

-Oh yeah my job sucks too, what else is new.

PS: Have a grand beautiful day.