So far So good

In relation with my practicum. I went into my class with the cooperating teacher yesterday and taught the second period. I lost track of time again. And found out that most of the pupils could not produce simple sentences complete with the articles and so on. Some just copy the question right back on the answer column and some has trouble differentiating between 'as' and 'has'.

Today went into the Maths class on my own, I didn't know I was supposed to go in with my other cooperating teacher hehehe. It was the last 2 periods so I wanted to make sure that I did not do the same mistake I did yesterday. During the lesson, I unfortunately gave the pupils wrong instructions and I only realized it after they have sat in their groups ahahha to cover up my mistake I asked them to do it again as they took a long time to form the groups (ahahhaha) but in the end the new groups were formed and the activity I had in mind was able to be done. It was just me giving them Mentos sweets to divide among themselves. They were happy to get those sweets.

Then came the part for them to do the work, I called out 3 girls to do the questions on the whiteboard and only 1 could do it though it did take a while. The other 2 have trouble, maybe because they don't know their multiplication well enough or a bit confused about division. It gave me a bit of a headache thinking of how to help them and how to move forward. In the end I have to give them the questions as homework even though my plan was for us to it together and only 3 questions as homework. I have to check those with them tomorrow, but its only a 30 minutes class.

I came back to the hostel, ate my lunch and just felt so sleepy and tired. After reading the newspaper that I bought in school, I took a nap, planning to wake up after a 30 minutes nap but ended up sleeping till 5.30 (urgh wasted such good time but good sleep anyway hehehe). A shower, made coffee and took out some snacks, opened up my laptop, went to FB and read some messages.

Day One

Went early to the school, arrived around 6.15 am. It was still dark and the guard would not let us in as it was still too early. The teachers there arrive between 7am and 7.25 am. We have to rearrange with the taxi driver again.

Anyway, the PK1 met with us and told us that they have never received any letters stating our arrival and what should we teach there at that school. We gave her Puan Js' number and later found out that the practicum letters were faxed during the school holidays or when they had some renovation going on in the school, which then would mean some papers got misplaced.

Anyway, since the GB was out having a big meeting, we were given a place inside the staff room which was a bit crowded as there were 10 new teachers just posted to the same school. The big desk table meant for one teacher had to be shared by two teachers. And since this school is a mixed or sharing a building with another school, most things are put away into lockers or brought back home. Nothing was left on the desks. Which means that if we have any teaching aids or books or homework's or tests we have to bring it back with us to the hostel.

Talking about going back to the hostel, we had a little experiment after school today. We walked all the way to the LRT station. At first we wanted to try out taking a bus but other teachers told us that it could take hours to wait for a bus. Another suggested walking to a place where we can also take a bus, but she forgot what the number of the bus that needs to be taken. But at the bus stop, there were two other classmates there and we ended up walking together to the LRT station. I changed my shoes to my white slippers and ended up with blisters hahahhaa.

I do agree with another teacher saying that we might as well take the cab and since there are four of us, the rate would be cheaper than taking the bus and lrt. And if we have many things to carry some more, it would be better to take a cab.

We have not received any timetables yet, maybe tomorrow we will. Then the lesson planing and teaching aids making will commence hehhee. For now, I will read up on lesson planning and maybe some CS Maths reading and try not to think too much about Honey.

ps: I messaged him last night asking him to wish me luck for today. No reply.

Saturday and one more day to...

Practicum....a bit nervous and excited. More nervous actually. I have all the pens and books that I would need and if need more things, easily can go and look for it. Have to be at the school early around 7.15 to 7.30 am for morning assembly/round up. So give and take the time needed to be there, have to wake up at least 5 am. Get ready, have coffee and biscuits or soup (whichever to my liking) then at 6 am we have asked the taxi driver to collect us. We will be waiting at the guard house. Taxi from here to the school is Rm7.00 more or less, hopefully less since the taxi driver said there are no traffic jams around that time. Will be bringing along a note book, pens, marker pens (maybe not the whole pencil case), the record book, water and biscuits and have to rethink about the sport shoes. Since we haven't actually figured out how we are going to get back to the hostel from the school. Thinking about walking from the school to the lrt station but seems so far away in the Google Map. Also thinking about getting a bus to the hostel but don't know which bus to take hehehhe. So have to think about this more.

Hmmm I have found and bought a water kettle just like Kak Ida, meaning the same price and style but different brand. Hers is Elba mine is Faber. The name reminded me of the Faber medical at the hospital back home. Anyway, it is Rm 59.00 and divided into four since there are four of us here in this room, each need to pay Rm14.75. So far only P has paid, the other two did not even mention anything about it. If they want to use it then they have to pay. Just in case the water kettle does not last long, then at least I won't be losing so much money. They have it easy anyway, since last semester, most of the things used here belongs to me and Honey. Well the printer belongs to Honey, the ink I bought it. The wire extension belongs to me, the dish washer/cleaner. The padlock and keys my mum bought for me. The brush to clean the bathroom and toilet also belongs to me, I lost the one last semester (someone stole it) and the new one this semester I bought it and I cleaned both the toilet and bathroom. Any thanks from them or even acknowledgment? Nope. I don't want thanks actually just acknowledgement.

Look here in this room now, it was cleaned or rather the floor been swept only once while we have been here for 2 weeks now. Would the others make a move? Maybe C but even she is now so much engrossed with her laptop. Urgh....

Now there was something that had happened earlier this week, Monday to be exact. That time our lift was broken, so if someone forgot something they have to take the stairs. And it would be very tiresome if you are staying at the very top floor. I am staying at the very top floor, 6th floor. From our campus building, we have to take about 3 floor high kind of stairs too. So lots of stairs. Now, we have an assignment that was supposed to be passed up last Friday 8th but because C was busy with her FB she did not finish it on time and we had to pass it up on Monday. Monday she left early for class. I went afterwards. When I was at the canteen, she mesaged me about it, I also forgot all about it (hey I did my part during the holidays, she was finishing it up so she should be on to it isn't it?). Anyway, since I was already at the campus building (canteen) I sent a messaged to E asking her help to bring it along, since when I left she was still there, she was the only one there.

When she arrived at class I asked her about it and she said 'Oh I didn't read the message" meaning she didn't know that I have asked for her help so means she does not have the assignment with her. So Ok I thought, I just have to go and get it then later during break. Now during break, at 10am, I mentioned to the class about going back to the hostel, if it was ok to go back to get the assignment. E was also in the class and I am very sure she heard me, since everyone else I asked afterwards heard me, why didn't she?? So anyway, after asking and telling them my reason to go back to the hostel, off I went. On the way, I met C and she asked me where I was going so I told her to get our assignmet. She laughed and said that the book is with E. E had it all along. I asked why didn't you tell me or E tell me that? She just laughed.

At that time I sooooo really wanted to strangle her. I also wanted to strangle and chocked E. I kept mum and went to the toilet. I could feel tears forming and feel so very much betrayed. The thing is this, if our hostel was only next door I wouldn't mind it at all but this is the time when the lift was broken, so go down 3 floor high of stairs and go up to the 6th floor, the go down and up the stairs again for nothing?? What if I have asthma or something? Did they even consider that? Did they have so much fun making fun of other people and playing them around? My answer would be yes and yes since they did that to me. I was so mad at that time I had to call someone (Honey) to just talk and ask him what I should do since at that time like I said I soo wanted to strangle them both, but E especially.

Honey said to just let it go, ignore it and go back to class pretending like nothing happened. So I did. And both of them did not say anything to me about it, nor did I mentioned it to them. I did not even looked at them then.

Until now actually I still feel a bit of residual urge to strangle the both of them. They just irk me soo much. They are both adults but act like little bratty kids. I just have to ignore it all and keep my focus on my studies and practicum and teaching aids and lesson plans.

Tolerance and acceptance right. Yeah but sometimes I just have to vent it out. I can't keep it all inside, it will eat me alive.

Sad note on Thursday night, a friend from Matriculation passed away because of heart attack. We were the same age. We took the same course during university but he was in UKM and I was in UMS.

Nell, rest in peace.

When You're Gone...

Listening to Avril right now. Hope this song won't become true.

Anyway, I don't know why, and I regret it. I said something which I should not have said. I said it in a moment of ..I don't know...surprise? Shocked? Losing my one channel of connection? I said it and I was sorry then. And I said sorry too.

We'll see what happen next.

"...the words I need to hear, to get me through the day, and make it okay...."

"I Miss You"

re-edit: I'm forgiven :D so happy.

I've re-checked all my info online as well, don't want to be hacked.

I have to stop jumping to conclusions!!

And again, tolerance and acceptance towards people that annoys the heck out of you. Tolerance and acceptance towards people that enjoys making fun of you.

Tolerance and acceptance.

How it Goes....

Met Honey on Wednesday night, went to accompany him to buy colour printer for his company. Arrived at destination before 9pm, was there till before 10 plus pm, a short stop at the convenience store for some drinks and biscuits (for my dinner that night). Went to his place to get the cooling pad for my laptop and the CD to install the printer in my laptop. A kiss. Sent me back before 10.30 pm, well actually arriving at my place at exactly 10.30pm. Curfew = 11 pm.

So that was that. Short but I'm happy that I get to meet him and hear him and see that he is well.

He is kinda like chipsmore, sometimes you see him, sometimes you don't. Sometimes you hear from him, sometimes you don't...............for quite a while.

But really, I was so happy to see him, to hear from him that day, and I am thankful for that chance. Thanks for thinking of me, thanks for bringing me out and spend a few precious hours with you. *HUGS*

So that was on Wednesday.

Today after class, 3 of us went out to hunt for some very much needed music books. We got Year 1, 2, 3, 4 and 6. All the ones without cds, the activity book. I really need these books as I have absolutely no idea what to have for activites during music classes. These books will give me some ideas on how to go on about it. Yeah good haul for the day. The others say that there is another music book which the lecturer recommended we get but all the bookstore we went into said they no longer carry that book or something like that. This book that the lecturer recommended has cds in it for each year. I guess we will be book hunting again soon. But again, pretty good haul for today. We walked a lot, but then I ate quite a big dinner :P. Ahahhaa owh well, I can do more walking tomorrow. Gonna go and look for the printer ink. I think I will ask the others to pay as well.....hmmmm have to think about this. If its pictures, it doesn't come out so good. Hmmm anyhow, still am thankful that I have a workable printer, from Honey too :D