Lost it

I lost it this evening, I lost my temper with the PTI/local M kids that have been bothering and disturbing my dogs. I took an umbrella with me, didn't even bother with shoes or sandals so I walk barefoot to the gate and closed it. I yelled at the kids from the staircase, asking them don't they have any homes to go to, don't they have anything better to do than to disturb my dogs.

I was mad at them, them disturbing my dogs have been happening since I was little, a little girl. These kids must be the next generation of the previous generation to have disturbed my dogs. Don't they have anything better to do? They play in the middle of the road, they dirty up the drive ways of the homes they play which is ours and my neighbour. Do you know that they (general here but I know it is one of them in the crowd) have written bad words on the driveway of my neighbour? Yeah they spray it on with red spray paint. Imagine the nerve and gallness of those kids doing that....If they do that to my driveway, I will take photos and send them to Hotline and the Police. I threatened to call the police on them if they come to my driveway again just now. I was that pissed off with them.

I am not happy with my behaviour of course. But I am telling it here honestly what I felt just now and I was mad, I could hit those kids and really hurt them....I came up to the house and took out my hockey stick from its wrapping. I don't know why I did that or what I could achieve by doing that...but I did it....being angry make me do stupid things and I don't like being angry. I feel that I could do something really stupid and kill someone if I am really really really angry. So I don't like being angry or becoming angry. But what can I do with those kids? What can I do to make them stop disturbing my dogs? My dogs certainly did not chase after them, they did not bite them or anything, my dogs didn't do anything to them at all.... so what the eff?

Leave my dogs alone!!