Thankful and Grateful

11th September 2009:

I an thankful to have money to buy food and drinks daily.
I am thankful to have a laptop and broadband for me to do my work.
I am thankful to live/stay in a place with water, electricity, bed, locker etc.

Was written during my course staying in a hostel. The laptop belongs to H, he lent it to me. Thank you sooo much darling ♥

Thankful :) and Grateful

10th September 2009:

I am thankful to have two healthy parents, healthy brothers and sister.

I am thankful to be healthy as well.

I am thankful to have H as my bf and best friend.

I am thankful that I am able to tell him anything.

I am thankful to have what I have now.

I am thankful to have laughter and good friends.

Above are what I wrote down on the date mentioned.

Cleaning day or Lady

So yesterday already cleaned out a small space but lots of junk in my home. And now today from 9 am till almost 3 pm, cleaned up one room...the bedroom of my childhood (the one I shared with my older brother), my brothers room (T and F) and now my cousin E is staying in that room. Well, lots of junk too. About 6 small and large boxes full of trash from that one room. We did not touch any of the clothes as we do not know which ones are not needed or wanted anymore, so basically all those stuff is from the outside of the closet. We cleared it out, the tables, the drawers, and we have a space that can fit in the big stuff that my Dad have kept for years.....Also managed to squeeze in there is the big bag full of cloths that my Mum have kept for years. Both of them have some sort of something going on where each keeps things that they are going to use or need sometime in the future. Don't know when that is. Oh well, just have to sneak it out during the next cleaning session.

J did not help.....not much.....minuscule actually.

Cleared out the stuff yeah and guess what we found an empty bed....my grandma can sleep in there when she next comes for her checkup. She does not have to sleep on the couch in the living room then. And she can lecture my cousin E all night long hahahhahaa.

What else did we find? Well 21 lighters, 3 piggy banks with coins of 1 cent and etc, photos that I pinned up on the Styrofoam board, a small TV inside the closet, lots of pillows that my Mum said how come these are here? How come we have many pillows? (i dunno.......) and lots and lots of dust and trash and junks.

Yup, a good haul.

PS: End of cleaning activity with hanging up of the freshly washed curtains of the living room and new (old actually, been in storage) curtain for the bedroom. Ends at 4.16pm. I'm having chocolate drink with 1 piece of kuih pisang. Now gonna watch Book Of Eli and perhaps play games on FB. :D

Owl

Still up....it is 2 am.

Today woke up and did some cleaning and organizing of the things near the ironing place. Emptied out all the drawers and organized the stuff, threw out a lot of stuff too but Mum wanted to keep some stuff (though I wanted to throw it out, since it has been there since forever and not been used). But can't win in that battle hehe. Anyway, the drawers were cleared of stuff and I now have 3 drawers for myself, and I put in my stuff that were in the boxes. Two more boxes to be cleared away but those are notes and books. My clothes are still in the luggage bag though. Hmmm.

Mum asked me to put away 2 suitcase into the store room. These suitcases were put behind the rattan couch, so you can't see it actually and it is not in the way. But Mum told me to go and put it into the store room and well I did try to reason with her but she won't have any of it therefore I had to go and do what was told...good girl huh...but I was stomping and banging stuff as I go but mostly because I thought I had the store room keys already but actually I did not. So I had to go back up and search for the keys, wasting time..... Not a good way to start of the day and I really need to work on controlling my temper eh...yup....

After lunch (which was a bit late) of course was feeling tired with the cleaning and everything. Fell asleep watching TV. Was suddenly awoken to go to church, but I was feeling sticky and yucky and need time to get ready. Long story short, did not go.

Fighting with 3 folder/files on this desktop that just do not want to be deleted.

A fight (?) with H....I said something which was taken wrongly and I apologized but I still felt bad because of the way we ended the conversation....I guess I can't simply say things that I meant as a joke as it could mean something else entirely to someone else. Makes me wary of saying anything now...no funny stuff.... :(

Anyway, I think I will do my thankful and grateful post tomorrow morning...I mean rewrite what I have written before in a notebook, here in this blog.

Lost it

I lost it this evening, I lost my temper with the PTI/local M kids that have been bothering and disturbing my dogs. I took an umbrella with me, didn't even bother with shoes or sandals so I walk barefoot to the gate and closed it. I yelled at the kids from the staircase, asking them don't they have any homes to go to, don't they have anything better to do than to disturb my dogs.

I was mad at them, them disturbing my dogs have been happening since I was little, a little girl. These kids must be the next generation of the previous generation to have disturbed my dogs. Don't they have anything better to do? They play in the middle of the road, they dirty up the drive ways of the homes they play which is ours and my neighbour. Do you know that they (general here but I know it is one of them in the crowd) have written bad words on the driveway of my neighbour? Yeah they spray it on with red spray paint. Imagine the nerve and gallness of those kids doing that....If they do that to my driveway, I will take photos and send them to Hotline and the Police. I threatened to call the police on them if they come to my driveway again just now. I was that pissed off with them.

I am not happy with my behaviour of course. But I am telling it here honestly what I felt just now and I was mad, I could hit those kids and really hurt them....I came up to the house and took out my hockey stick from its wrapping. I don't know why I did that or what I could achieve by doing that...but I did it....being angry make me do stupid things and I don't like being angry. I feel that I could do something really stupid and kill someone if I am really really really angry. So I don't like being angry or becoming angry. But what can I do with those kids? What can I do to make them stop disturbing my dogs? My dogs certainly did not chase after them, they did not bite them or anything, my dogs didn't do anything to them at all.... so what the eff?

Leave my dogs alone!!

Thankful :)

I am thankful and grateful for what I have :)

I am thankful and grateful to have a healthy body and good health, to have a beautiful and safe home, to have both my parents and that they are both healthy, safe and happy, to have my brothers and sister that are also healthy, safe and happy, to have pets that are cute and healthy, to have all the great people and things in my life.

It is very general, I hope to make it more specific soon....I used to write these before in a little notebook....I will start again :) and perhaps write back what I have written in the notebook in here yeah? Yeah hehehe.

Anyway, to make something else more specific, I am thankful and grateful to be able to have below things :)

1. My Neighbour Totoro
2. Shawn of the Dead
3. My Fair Lady -my dad requested it
4. Wallace and Gromit A Matter of Loaf and Death
5. The Secret (which is why I am making these lists/grateful thankful list
6. Romeo and Juliet (1968) -my dad requested it
7. Love Story (1970) - my dad requested it
8. How to Lose Friends and Alienate People
9. Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs (I always mistyped it to be Meahtballs...hmmm)
10. Princess Mononoke

And a few more that I have put away in my external newly bought disk :) which I am also thankful and grateful to have hehehhe.

How do I feel? I feel good, and I will keep it up ngeehehhee :D

.........

I am trying to get all the episodes of Lie To Me, and I am now down to one more episode - episode 8 season 1- to make it all complete :) ....next is Medium :)

I find this series Lie to Me to be very interesting and I learn new things from it about body language and how to tell if someone is lying or not but of course I still need more information and do some research and reading on my own. But I really do enjoy it and can't wait for the third season hehehhee.

For Medium there are more than 2 seasons, so I will be spending a lot of time on that one too hehehhee...thinking about doing the same thing for CSI but we will see yeah hehehhe.

Fay told me about using Utorrent, I will be looking into that soon. For the moment I am quite happy with what I am using but of course if Utorrent is much better and much faster, I might go to that hehhehe.

My grandma is with us now at home and she told me some things of course and the conversation we had just now was really really funny. It was about her glasses and how she does not like to use it but if she does not use it this and this is what happened and when she use it this and this happened, something to to with lotion as hair gel, chicken shit as tinggat and plasticine as soft cake/bread :) pretty funny hehehhehe. Love her ♥

Ahahhaa...♥

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Nothing Much

Just did some skipping today ....

and a bit of crying....just now....

Watched Sex and the City on HBO......Carrie said that she is lonely....coincidence or am I just thinking too much?

Another day gone by

Did some skipping with the skipping rope....

Drank the green tea coffee, was not hungry afterward but I ate slices of banana cake with another mug of coffee anyway...*sigh*

Watched Toy Story 1, played games on FB.

Uploaded the pictures from my camera to FB.

Charged my handphone as the battery was almost dead...no sound from it at all, even though someone said it will...that did not happen....I charged the battery because I saw that I had a miscall from my brother but nothing came of it, guess it was just a wrong call....

Tried to watch SATC dvds on my laptop but the first cd I put in did not show any pictures, the second cd showed pictures but no sound....*sigh* so can't take that with me when its time to go.

No news yet about the posting thingy.

Will do more skipping tomorrow, vacuum the living room, clean up the kitchen, organize my papers.

Yup..... :)

Wheeee :D

While others are busy and excited with the football result of Brazil and Netherlands, I am not..I am or was busy and excited and happy with other more important stuff hehhehe.

Talked to H :D that happened and I am happy...~ wheeee~ :D XoxoxoxoX

I am happy and am singing along to the Korean group SNSD...even though I don't know if I pronounce it correctly but sounds almost the same hahaha :)

In other things, I bought new pajamas the other day and thought that I could fit into it since it is the largest size there (L) (yup I am getting bigger *sigh*) but I was wrong....well half wrong....the shorts are fine with me, the top half was ok too except for the middle part...urgh....will pass this pajama to J.....owh well...I can buy a new pajama then hehehhee :) the bright side of it isn't it and well okie I will continue with my fat loss mission :)

I Can Do This :D

Bitter coffee and my future

Went to buy some things with my friend Fay, thought that the item was as advertised (the price) but when went to pay it was more expensive and not as advertised. Did not want to make a big deal about it so left the shop. They did not have any stock on the benzoil peroxide 2.5% that I wanted. I gave my stock to my brother. Need to find it elsewhere....but where?

Anyway, went to Coffee bean to try the salad that Fay was so into...didn't think much about it, wanted to try something new, did not look at the price ahahahha mistake there....salad was RM15.50 plus the chicken extra RM4.00. The drink I asked for was not like what I expected it to be. It tasted different.....bitter....ahhahaha. That cost Rm10.30 I think...why there is a 30 cent price I don't know.

Was called by Mom while there, was asked about posting..our names for posting have arrived and Mom asked where I wanted. I asked for P1....basically I don't really care for the money, I just want my basic amenities....the whole conversation just made me feel more nervous and scared really about my future and feeling bad too as before I said that I can be anywhere and can make it work anywhere but there I was asking for P1. Hmmm I dunno, hope and pray for the best and I will do my best as well.

I feel so nervous........I so want to talk to H.