TGIF

Yeahh...it is Friday :D the weekends are finally here....

My Maths lect. came today for my class at 11 am. But because of the sports the kids have to train for kawad and perbarisan. So from 37 girls left only 4. I still have to continue with the lesson because of the lecturer. So I taught them. Remember I only have 4 students at that time.

So afterwards, my lecturer gives me his feedback. Not good at all. He said that I have a very monotonic voice and I should raise it up and lower it down, have a variety, shout and speak softly....but...why should I shout when I only have 4 kids there with me? Hmmm.

Then he said I should walk around the classroom....ummm...only 4 kids remember...I asked them to sit together in front, so I don't have to walk around the classroom...why should I? I would look crazy if I do that when I only have 4 kids with me....sot....

Then he said why didn't I use LCD for the questions that we did in class just now? Ummm....I already told you, it was suppposed to be group work questions but because almost all of them have to leave the classroom, and I know 2 out of 4 kids have problems with doing the word problems themselves, that was why we did the discussion one question at a time. And it would not work if I show the questions using LCD because how then would the kids underline and circle the necessary information? Can he said.... how??? Aduiiiiii sottttt....

Then lastly he said he did not give marks for today's lesson because only 4 kids with me. He will come again next week on Wednesday. Our sports day is on Thursday, and I am sure they will have a last minute practice of kawad or perbarisan or whatever which will make the students disappear from class. Which means most probably I will be left with 4 kids again on Wednesday...ah never mind he said.....THEN...why not give marks for today's class??????

ARGHHHHHHHhh...............

Then he said something about wanting proof of what we have done in this school in terms of co-curriculum and stuff... so he wants pictures....got those pictures from A. I looked through it just now...ahhahahaha...guess what...not so many pics of me..but lots of pics of the owh-so-pretty-me-I-am-perfect-kalau-sudah-bida-mimang-bida-pakai-BB cream-pun-sama-juga-bida (that was what she said to me in Guardian today). Dunno if she was referring to me or to someone else...but really, what a rude and bad thing to say. Well, I rather be that *bida* and work on my insides and be sincere and do the best I can even though I know I make mistakes than be a pretty face and not pretty in the insides, always making fun of other people saying ooo look how fat she is...ugly...the way she is walking....her face looks old...lots of acne...he is not handsome but has a house, car, motorcycle....he is not handsome but his father is a pastor....he has lots of money but he is short .....so many guys want me....kura-kura....fat.....blabalabalabnallala....yuck!

So anywhoo....not so many pictures of me but can do la...the reason not so much pictures is because I don't like asking people to take my picture...especially her...because when she takes my picture, she will make it look bad...like the pictures of me that she took in Cameron...turned out bad most of it. And when she takes my picture she has this look on her face that she feels somehow disgusted....hate that..or maybe I am paranoid....hmmm....

Found out that the exam could probably be in 3 or 2 weeks after practical ends...so the end could be near...then have interviews etc....if it is true that we will be posted as soon as after the interview, then I could have less than 3 or 4 months here near him....so near yet so far....I wonder how it will be after posting and if I get a place far away......will he look for me? Try to call or send letters or emails or sms? hmmmmm....