House No. Six

Happy Easter!

2011-04-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Easter! :)

A funny thing happened during the church service, more specifically was during the baptism...pouring of blessed water onto the heads of the young men and women. Father seem to be very enthusiastic in pouring the water, he was splashing them with the water. It got on their shoulders and a few seem to have wet backs afterwards hehehe.

We were at the parish hall, so we were watching on the screen, enjoying the splashing when suddenly the screen went blank and someone said 'Ala....' in a disappointed tone. It seemed funny to me, seems we were enjoying the splashing a bit too much. The screen wasn't blank for long though and we resumed our enjoyment hahaha.

Simple life Manhattan: a 90-square-foot microstudio

2011-04-23T11:00:00.001+08:00

Wow, amazing isn't it? She is living in Manhattan, one place that I so want to go to one day. Having a small living space is all right, the important thing is that it must be well organized and clean :)

I like this.

Beyond Band of Brothers: The War Memoirs of Major Richard Winters

2011-04-23T08:43:00.000+08:00

Ohohaohoahaoohaoa :D

I have the audio book of the above title hehehehe :) SO HAPPY!!

If I suddenly laugh or cry with earphones on, it most probably be because I am listening to this audio book. Ahahhaha :) I feel like jumping up and down and smiling a big big smile :D

Anyone out there that shares my excitement and happiness? Ngehehhee.

Waiting for another audio book but that one I think will take a while longer. Never mind, I have this delicious one to enjoy hahahahhaa :D

Fallen Cheezy Wedges

2011-04-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

So yesterday I went and bought myself a Zinger burger with cheezy wedges and of course the drink. As usual, I tied up the plastic holding the drink but didn't do it for the burger and wedges. The wedges was on top of the burger and I placed the plastic on the front passenger seat. I couldn't wait to eat it YUmmm :D

Anyway, driving home, have to go round a roundabout. So I did. And woooosh...the plastic bag slid over to the passenger door. I managed to hold on to the plastic and arrived safely home. I picked up the plastic with the burger and wedges but I didn't see any wedges inside. OH NO! It managed to slid off the seat!

I opened the passenger door and saw the poor cheezy wedges all clumped, fallen from their little box of cheezy goodness onto the little space between the door and the seat. Urgh!!

What did I do next? Well, picked it all up, rinsed it with water...and ate it.All.

Was it desperation or not being wasteful or just plain crazy? Don't know, don't care but I think it is funny.....and crazy....*sigh*

Tama & I: Macam Itik & Ayam (Like a duck & chicken)

2011-04-19T17:21:00.000+08:00

So the other day, I was talking with Tama and we had the following conversation (my handphone was on the table):

Tama : Ko tau tu sundait?

Me : Sundait? Pa tu?

Tama : Sundait ba....pertakaan.

Me : Ha? Pertakaan?

Tama : Iya, pertakaan. Sundait.

Me : Pertakaan ka perkataan? (I thought she said it wrongly)

Tama : Bukan, pertakaan ba...aiya macam mana mo kasi tau ko ni? (Tama was saying this in Dusun hahhaa)

Me : Tidak tau, apa tu pertakaan?

Tama : Pertakaan ba....mana si Rica? (Rica is my 12 year old cousin. She ask Rica what is sundait and explain it to me, but Rica also doesn't know it hahaha)

Me : Saya sms si Mums la hahahha...(I smsed my mum asking her what is sundait hahaha)

Tama : Ya sms la dia...susah betul mo kasi tau ni...hmmm...(after I have sent the message then she said..) Mo taka-taka baitu...

Me : Oh teka teki ka tu sundait?

Tama : Iya hahahha oh taka taki?

Me : Teka teki hhahaha

This is one of the example of the conversation that we have hahaha, like a chicken talking with a duck, having communication problems but ours is fun and with laughter hahha.

Then she gave me a sundait, what only takes 2 fingers but everyone can know very quickly? The answer is ----> sending a message (sms) :)

Was I persuaded? hmmmmm

2011-04-19T16:14:00.002+08:00

So I have not written anything for a long long time now. I thought of deleting this blog, just because. Well, just because I was tired and have not much to say, well actually I do but I rather not say it haha.

Anyway, during my course just now, it was about writing in blogs, and I thought .... what happened to my blog? Should I? Shouldn't I?

Oh well, quoting Samantha from SATC ~ Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda ~

I don't know what it means, but sure sounds fun, and fun to say hahahha

To answer my own question, I guess I was & why not yeah? ehhehe

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

2011-02-03T12:17:00.001+08:00

To all those that celebrates :)

I got 2 packet of angpows...total gain Rm 20.00 hehehhe....happy :D

Yeah Presents :)

2011-02-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

Don't you just love getting them? hehehe....

Got a new bottle of perfume from my sister in law :) from Philippine :D

And then got the dslr camera from my brother...woohooo...well actually my dad wanted it but we all wanted it hahhaa...I'll try my hand at it....I do have my own camera but its nothing like a dslr :)

WooHooo :)

Any sort of presents are lovely to receive though isn't it? Chocolates, flowers, rings, clothes, books, love letters.....just to name a few...

Dinner and Long Chats

2011-02-02T02:30:00.002+08:00

with a few of my good old friends :) Feel very full of food and drink and happy and a bit sad at the same time too.

Happy to know that my friends are well and healthy and that 2 will be tying the knot this year :D

Sad to know that a few of us have things to sort out in our own lives, knowing that we could and should have better. Feels better to be able to talk about things, without judgement...so thankful to have them as friends.

Met an old colleague in the social site, chatted a bit, good to know that things are well with and for him :)

I want more!!

PS: It is scary to think about What Ifs.....and hard to stop.....

PS2: I think my cat (lying on my lap) just farted...........

Dinner Plan

2011-01-31T19:50:00.001+08:00

for tomorrow with old good friends :D

Yeah :D

Have you ....

2011-01-22T21:24:00.004+08:00

ever said to yourself to not think about something, and that is all there is in your mind? Like you can't stop thinking about it? And you become upset because you don't want to think about it and its always there?

ever said no thank you, decline politely and when they keep insisting, you feel like pushing the glass into their face and force them to drink all of it instead?

ever smiled and force yourself to be civil when all you want to do is force them out of your home and give them a piece of your mind about their behaviour?

yeah maybe some of these has happened to you before....hmmm....

Mathematics and Life

2011-01-18T15:35:00.004+08:00

During Maths class with my Year 6 today, we did addition and subtraction again since not one of them could do all the calculations without any mistake (hehe more practice right), so anyway this one kid was counting out loud and I was looking down his shoulder and it was 4 plus 7. He was counting out loud and was kinda singing too, saying '4, 7, ~moving of fingers as in to count~ and he said straight away, '16' and I was like 'ha?' and he looked up and looked at me and said quickly 'ehhhhh....11'.... and his two friends sitting next to him burst out laughing....and I could not help myself but smile at their antics....but really goodness me....hope they can do great with multiplication and division :)

I promised them that the winner of the Bingo game we played earlier this month would get a small gift from me and I finally got to it today hahhaa bad of me.....I got pencils, erasers and sharpeners of different sizes and brands and numbered them all. All in total are 7 small gifts which the winner had to pick out the number. So one girl from Year 6 and one girl from Year 5. Year 5 girl got the cute erasers (erasers shaped as Coca Cola) and Year 6 girl got the Exam Pad eraser. Erasers are such important thing here, 3 or 6 kids can share 1 eraser.....

Was almost involved in a front crash/accident this morning on the way to school....well not almost, thank goodness I was able to drive safely into the spot near the bus stop....the Kembara was trying to overtake the big ass lorry but it was kinda slow....and honestly I did not see any car coming towards me in the lane that was supposed to be going the other way...do you understand this? Hmmm....everything was fine but I was a bit shaken up...I was carrying other people's kids with me....Thank goodness for being protected by my guardian angels....

Hmmm that seems to be all today, I'm itching to go and watch Bones and eat some more chocolates ngehehhehe :) I've been a bit bad with those chocolates :p

edit: guessed my almost accident story did not well flow as well as I had hoped, bad writer/blogger.....not fluent enough mwahahahha.... oh well.......

Year 1 and the Program Transisi

2011-01-10T16:00:00.002+08:00

Urgh a bit of a headache at school today thinking about the year 1 lessons, should I continue with lessons or go back to the Program Transisi? It should be Program Transisi with them for 3 weeks but I thought heck what am I suppose to be doing with them during those hours? Better not waste the time and start the lessons........... but then I found out that I went about it the wrong way (haha my bad, so sorry kids)

...so I thought again, since PPD are going to be visiting again sometime next week, I should probably continue with lessons since I have started it, right? Hmmmm...but the kids are still unable to say Good Morning Teacher (the last time they said Good Morning....Class :) ahhaha) so that one I definitely have to do again...and also how to say that they want to go to the toilet or wash their hands, finished their work and so forth. *sigh* :)

I asked around too (well only 2 teachers) and both said I should go with the Program Transisi. Even though I heard 2 other teachers teaching already in the Year 1 class...oh well I will go with the Program Transisi but with my own lesson on English and salutations and those I mentioned earlier :)

But there is one or more slot that stated Learning of the school song...and I myself do not know the school song, I mean I know if I hear the kids sing it but if not I don't...and I don't have the sounds...maybe ask a few of the older kids to sing and I record them singing and play it back again for the year 1 kids? Yeah? yeah I can do that, have to get a recorder thingy or radio....hmmm...

But anyway for tomorrow, I will teach them the salutations and other sentences (hehe) and the sound of the letters, in other words, phonics....start slow...not sure if the material I got from the net is the correct phonics or not but since it was the only one available and free...well...hope for the best...Of course I will look for more silly hhahaha...can't be teaching them the wrong stuff now right... :)

First Week

2011-01-07T17:11:00.004+08:00

So the first week of school :) ..... yesterday I heard something funny hehhehee.

The next class, a year 4 class was talking about warm blooded animals with their teacher and the teacher asked them what does warm blooded means? Why are the animals called warm blooded?

The kids answered it is because their blood is red in colour...nope said the teacher and I smiled at the answer given by the kids ....

so another kid tried to answer and he said maybe it is because their blood is boiling.....hehe

darah mendidih............ teheheehhehe.....

The Mystery of the Missing Maggie Mee

2010-12-23T13:45:00.004+08:00

So we have another mystery on our virtual Internet hands....ngehehhee...okay okay, lets get to it...

So last Sunday my dad bought 3 packets of maggie mee, one packet has 5 maggie mee packets. So there are 15 all together right? Right....so my sister ate one packet the next day in the morning and another in the evening, meaning she opened one big packet of 5 and have already eaten 2 of them...leaving 3 which went missing come Tuesday morning...hmmmmm

So Tuesday, my sister opened another big packet and ate one small packet of maggie mee leaving behind 4. But my mum and I came home later that afternoon and I found only 1 big packet left..which means 4 little packets have gone missing.....whoah!

In total 7 packets of little maggie mee have been eaten by unknown person(s) and in less than owh 2 days...someone is very very hungry or they are certainly storing food for winter hmmmm

Of course I have my suspects but again no proof whatsoever. But then again...freeloaders anyone? They do no chores, they don't help clean up the house, they don't help with dishes or cook dinner for my parents, they don't help pay bills or buy food (maggie mee?) or other stuff for the home.....but they sleep here for free, bath for free, eat for free (maggie mee?), drink for free, watch tv or cds for free for all hours if they can........how can anyone NOT be annoyed with them??

And I am feeling guilty for being annoyed with them?? Shit!

Coughing too much

2010-12-19T07:34:00.002+08:00

Did not go to church :( too much coughing, would bother the rest praying.....

Good Good News :)

2010-12-16T13:07:00.003+08:00

So my friend Shirley and my cousin Daevis are both fine :)

The operation for Shirley went well and Daevis is out of the hospital already, heard it was anemia with something bronchitis or something (not sure of the term and well actually I forgot what it was). But both are fine and I am happy and thankful and thanks for the prayers of good health :)

I had some bad cough since early this week and I am getting better, still a few coughs here and there but it does not hurt as before. So that means on the road to recovery :) Lots of water and chicken soup, though today I had spicy noodles. Oh well it was delicious anyway hehehhee.

I am so enjoying The Closer, have to wait for Season 5 and 6 but its ok :) Still have plenty of time hehehhee. Also Dexter but more to The Closer now, and I got House from my brother which is excellent hehheheeehe...I got to thinking the other day, why is it most of the tv shows that I like are about investigation and stuff...maybe deep down I wanted to be a police officer or something? Hmmm or maybe it is just because I have always enjoyed reading detective stories in my childhood...yeah that could be it hehhehee....love those stories :D

But lately I really want something funny...you know, watch something funny, ready funny stories etc .....I just want to laugh out loud. Guess I will be looking for 1 Night 2 Days then hehhehe....

Sometimes its hard to be all happy and stuff but I know its better than being sad and cynical ....hmmmm.....arghhhh I dunno....

Have to go travelling soon, not looking forward to the travelling period, just want to take a fast helicopter and fly there and back....urghhh.......but I guess it will be a quick journey if I pepper it with music and stuff yeah :)

Prayers and other stuff

2010-12-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

I'd like to request prayers for health and quick recovery for my coursemate Shirley and my little baby cousin Daevis. Shirley is having surgery on Monday which is tomorrow and my little cousin has been in the hospital since Tuesday for low blood. I heard he has been given blood already but still in the hospital, don't know when the doctor will discharge him, hopefully soon.

Was looking forward to meeting him yesterday when arrived in TBN for a funeral, but was very very surprised to find out he is in the hospital. So prayers for him and my friend please thank you.

In the other stuff, I bought a book last Friday called The Power. Will read more pages and put some thoughts about it here. One of the expensive books I have ever bought hehe.

New Week, New Ideas

2010-11-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

Well sort of hehehe. I want to really exercise this week, do some activities such as jogging or walking at the beach, clean up the house more, organize my little wardrobe-plastic-bin thingy, bathe the cats and perhaps go to the movies or shopping or window shopping. I also really must call the accountant people to get something that will help me find out what is written on my pay slip, call or find out how to cancel out the broadband thing and maybe about my student loan. yeah.

I have a reunion coming up soon and I really don't have anything to wear be it formal or non-formal kinda reunion. I have the basic jeans and tshirt, will that do? Hmmm they are thinking of having a theme..would be fun but then again the shopping for clothes that can fit and look good on me etc arrrrghhhhh.......later that one.

I'm still in the middle of Dexter and The Closer, so these still on my list in this new week hehehe :) I love fast Internet connection :D

Hello Lover ♥ :3

2010-11-27T15:14:00.004+08:00

Always love that line from SATC hehehhe...anyway, have not written anything here since October 20th. Hmmm...mainly because of the non-existent internet connection for more than a month I think in TBN, but now there is internet connection but I am back in my home now so here I am hehehe. I came back earlier than today, I just have been spending my time stuffing food into my emmm average body hahahha and sitting watching investigation dramas :) which I enjoy immensely.

What are the tv shows you ask? Owh just Dexter and The Closer :) Love both, looking forward to both, and all the while prowling for other tv shows or movies hehhehehe.

Talking about movies, I have not watched the latest Harry Potter or as my friend Fay says Harry Pothead (yeah can tell she is not a fan, more of a Narnia fan, me not so but funnily enough we get along well hehehhehe) errr as I was saying have not watched the latest HP movie but am still looking forward to it, at the cinema or pc screen :) I am happy as long as it is clear and no cuts hehehehe.

Yeah okie enough about that. Now just want to list down my responsibilities at school for next year. I will be a Year 6 class teacher, I will be teaching Maths and English, the secretary for Co-curriculum, the Computer Class/Lab tr, teaching first aid and more to the BSMM, the head panitia for Maths......I think that is it hehhee. Looking forward to it all but at the same time nervous as I will be continuiung on from my Year 5 Maths kid to their Year 6 next year, and this year their Maths exam result was not so ,....well not as good as I had hoped. Out of 9 kids (it is a SKM school, few kids school :> ) only 3 passed the exam, each respectively got A, B and C. *Sigh* lots of activities to do then for them :) I know I can do it, and if I can do it, so can they hehhehee.

Going Back To TBN

2010-10-20T14:58:00.002+08:00

Going back today around 3.30 or so, waiting for my recently washed clothes to be a bit dry hehehe....a bit lazy to wash back in TBN.

The course was good, learned a lot and refreshed a lot of things too, meet new people but did not exchange numbers with them, just one or two or rather 3. Learned that there are many different teachers...some are friendly and smiley, some are not. Some are cooperative, some are not. Oh well :) Ate a lot, though I did try to control myself....but the mosquitoes, I could not control, I have been bitten by the mosquitoes many times, 2 or 3 bites on my neck area....looks like love bites hahahaha.....and a few more on my legs and back. Really, seems to be a mosquito magnet...urghhh....

On the 19 was a surprise, my mind was involved with the course thing so I was quite surprise to get a message from H wishing Happy 3rd Year :) very happy to get that...and wow, 3 years already...ours is unlike others, I would say it is a long distance relationship, though for a year or so, we were close though not always but am very thankful and grateful for those times....I miss him but I have some important things to keep in mind...my kids, my career, my health, my grandma etc......

For everything that I have till now, I am so thankful for all of it, even the mosquito bites.....

Back In Town to Attend a Course

2010-10-18T07:49:00.002+08:00

Yup, so just checking my FB and emails and stuff...I have a few things that needed to be printed out but the ink is low, very very low so that would have to wait. I'll just ask J to help out.

The course I will be attending soon this afternoon until the 20th is on literation (sp?) and numeration for year 2 kids next year. Since they said I will be taking Maths for Year 2 next year, I should go. Even if I won't be teaching year 2 Maths next year, I would still be getting the experience by attending this course. So this would be my first course in my career as a teacher :) I hope to make new friends as well of course....possibly from the area I am teaching in. My coursemates from Maktab are all over Sabah, many of us are on our own in each district, but many of them also have friends from other maktabs or their old school friends etc... mine are already teachers with a few years under their belt and most are in secondary school. Oh well, keep your chin up :) everything will be great :D

Bugs

2010-10-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

I have been bitten again and again...by bedbugs/dust mites....i dunno...it itches like crazy....I have 4 on my back, 3 on my love handle, left side (is that the correct name? wahahhaha)...i feel like taking a lighter to burn those bites...but that would be too extreme even for me, but that is what I feel about these itchy bites. I hate it!!

How to make it stop? No more bites!!

:(

Very simple birthday this year...so sooo simple..... :'( not even a long talk with H. No reply to my messages too.

Creepy Crawling Thingies

2010-09-25T08:07:00.004+08:00

Back in town to send some important documents. Drove yesterday with Mum, then I will have to drive myself back on Sunday. It will be a loooong drive :)

Wednesday afternoon I felt some itchiness on one of my toes on my left foot....I thought it was just a mosquito bite. Then Thursday afternoon I felt some really annoying itchiness on my left shoulder and 2 of my toes on my left foot! Put some Tiger Balm on it, went to sleep, woke up next morning to a red shoulder....guess I was scratching like mad during sleep. Urgh......again? Those things, those creepy crawling thingies that bit me...I don't know what they are exactly, nor do my family know....I hope this does not happen daily......I will be covered with black wounds after the itchiness dries out :(

Wanna see pictures? Yeah I want to gross you out more hahahha.....

Pictures

2010-09-11T20:14:00.002+08:00

Darcy....problem with her teeth though, scared that she will loose her left side teeth, bought a soft toothbrush but don't think it will help, except for the rest of the teeth...and Kitty and Nate.

The shoe rack at the quarters. Only when I place my handphone inside my shoe will it show at least 4 bars, and I can call out. None of that anymore as I will be staying with my grandma in Toboh hehehehe.

My little cousin Daevis, the youngest of us all hehehee....he is feeling a lot better. Such a cutie-pie.

Sleep

2010-09-06T02:51:00.002+08:00

Woke up in the middle of the night, no electricity. Tried to go back to sleep but can't. Then suddenly the electricity back on again and found out one light was not turned off. Looked at the time, it was 2.38 am, legs started to itch, put some nutmeg balm on and now can't sleep. So got up, turned on the computer and here I am surfing hehe.

I have to go and get my statement later in the morning, the machine was not working earlier in the evening. Then have to pick up some photos, update whatever it is I can update about the things I have to send back to Putrajaya.... hope to get some shut eye soon though.

A few pictures to be uploaded too. Soon....

Saturday in Toboh

2010-08-28T11:12:00.003+08:00

So back in Toboh again, the second weekend I am here. I forgot my jeans at the quarters so have to wear the blue tracksuit to church tomorrow hahahhaa so weird I think, but do-able. Can't wait to bring all my stuff here to Toboh, only 4 days left hehehehe well actually 3 days (Wednesday, Thursday and Friday next week but on Monday I have some activities at the school....mmmm maybe I can send some stuff back but I rather not. I might need those stuff. I still have to confirm it with Mum and Dad that I can have the car soon after that weekend. Then moving day and no more big bad mosquito (sp?) bites all over my legs and arms. And clean home :) and hot shower :) and lovely tasty food :) and internet :) and my grandma and cousins and aunts and uncles :) hehehehe can't wait.

I have been given the task of being the Panitia for Maths at my school most probably because I am the only one with Maths option. Hmmm I can do it!! But still need lots to learn. Been told that on 30th of October there will be a quick visit to Labuan for the Year 6 kids, all four of them hehehe but suprisingly all teachers and staff are going as well. Hmm is it sponsored or using own money? I was asked to check for flight tickets going back, but there seem to be no flights going out of LBU to BKI. Weird.....have to check again.

Speaking of money, was told by the finance lady that she needed the perlantikan letter to make my salary before the 1st of September. If not only next year month of March would I get my salary. That would be 6 or 8 months of pay. Only yesterday night did I know that the letter would have to picked up ourselves at the main office and that they will not send it to the schools' pigeon hole...which I had hoped and told by the GB. Hmmmm when can I go and get it, today they are closed. Monday? Of course but then when can I pass it to the finance lady? Only on the 1st of September. I hope she can make it straight away.

My poor little cousin Daevis is with a small cold. Do pray for his quick recovery and be a healthy young baby again. His breathing is a bit labored and does not seem want to eat or drink milk. He is such a sweet baby though, I will post a picture of him here soon.

Sunday

2010-08-22T12:59:00.004+08:00

Went to church with Tama. Washed my clothes and dry spin it using the washing machine. Still a bit damp but much better than before. A few clothes I air dry it in the bedroom, the rest outside but under a shade since it has been raining here on and off since yesterday.

After that, swept the floor, drank my cool coffee and read the Herald newspaper I bought at the church. No newspaper here, my uncle did not went and buy it. Oh well, there is always the Internet hehehee.

Speaking of the Internet, a bit of a pity though since yesterday another uncle made it possible to have wireless connection but then come afternoon it all went haywire. Had to take the wireless thingy off so no Internet for me using my laptop. And I was in the middle of downloading something too and unfortunately the usb here in this desktop is not working so what ever I saved here can't be saved into a pendrive, though I have not tried it yet hehehhee. Soon though.

I hope everything will be all right tomorrow, with classes and the other teachers and staff as well as the journey back to the school. :) Everything will be fine, I know it hehehe.

2010-08-21T11:05:00.004+08:00

only 31 pupils...teaching maths and english :)

Just a quickie

2010-08-20T18:55:00.003+08:00

In Toboh now hence the Internet and blog post. I have not downloaded the photos from my hp yet so that one soon.

I read the Secret which I have written for myself about the school and the surrounding area and home/quarters and it seems that all that I have written there has come true..... :D which means it worked!! The Secret worked for me.

I am now asking for goodness and greatness of the relationship between me and the students and my bf. Soon perhaps tonight I will ask for the goodness of relationship between me and the other staff and people around me :D yeah!!!

Thankful and Grateful

2010-08-11T18:15:00.002+08:00

25th October 2009:

I am thankful to have N as he is a very helpful and caring person.

I am thankful to have internet connection.

I am thankful to have met such a person that irritates me as this experience will teach me to be more tolerable to others same as her.

Today

2010-08-11T17:40:00.002+08:00

My Sarawakians friends have found out their school and one of them even went to look around at the school and even posted pictures in FB. So pretty the school and hehehe she said that the road is tar road so can drive a car there to school.

I called the place again today and managed to talk to the person in charge but I felt that he did not want to tell me. Though he did mentioned that they are still trying to do something about something regarding the placement of schools but then he asked for my full name and ic number and then suddenly brushed me off saying that I know that I will be placed in the interior which means the interior (dalam-dalam) which tells me that why should I know the name of the school since I will be placed way deep in the interior anyway?? And then he said he will check and promptly hang up the phone.

So.....I talked to a friend and she said oh well just wait for Monday then. Things will work out then next week.

I know that but I just wanted to know the name of the school so I can google it and find more information like how to get there, how is it like, what the school looks like, the environment and basically give me time to prepare myself. I know it will all be good and great and terrific school just like what I wanted it to be, but still...it would be nice to know...right?

Should I call again tomorrow?

Thank you Thank You Thank You :D

2010-08-09T14:27:00.002+08:00

I got Tambunan :) I can be near my grandmother Tama :D

I don't know the name of the school yet but I have to go for orientation on the 15th at 2 pm in Keningau. My friends says it is a 3 days 2 nights thing and then straight to school. Mum said to leave the big bag at home with Tama. Everything will run smoothly and fun and I will meet new and nice people hehee.

Hope to have more info soon.

Thankful and Ever Grateful :)

2010-08-02T10:39:00.001+08:00

So found out where I will be and I will be here hehehe here meaning my own state :) of Land Below the Wind :D

And I passed the interview, the one that I thought I did not do well hehehe I am happy :)

Now to wait for information about which school I will be going to but I am sure I will be near my grandma Tama :D Yup Yup :D

Sunday waiting for Monday

2010-08-01T15:11:00.003+08:00

Surfing Youtube for 1 Night 2 Days Korean reality show hehhee and found them and taking copies for myself :) Also took copies of a few Chip and Dale shows.

Already vacuum and mopped the floor. I left the TV watching space to J for her to mop, the rest I did it. The kitchen I will do soon. The table fan near me will be clean too. Need to look into my luggage bag to organize the papers and notes inside.

Need to look into The Secret again. I tried to send the movie of The Secret to a friend but it was too big, even after putting it into a zip/rar file. Any other way that I can do that to send the movie via email?

I still need to work on practising The Secret, a bit hard. But I know I can do it :)

So here it is The Secret for me: For my posting. I want a good school located near my grandma Tama house or kampung, a good school accessible by road which means I can bring a car there. A good school with water and electricity connection, a clean and safe place for me to live in near the school also with water and electricity connection and that the school have a kind hearted Headmaster and clerks and fellow teachers. :) This is what I want from the Bank of Universe and what I pray to have.

I have written a few Wants of The Secret too, should I write it here too? We'll see. :)

Thankful and Grateful

2010-07-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

11th September 2009:

I an thankful to have money to buy food and drinks daily.
I am thankful to have a laptop and broadband for me to do my work.
I am thankful to live/stay in a place with water, electricity, bed, locker etc.

Was written during my course staying in a hostel. The laptop belongs to H, he lent it to me. Thank you sooo much darling ♥

Thankful :) and Grateful

2010-07-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

10th September 2009:

I am thankful to have two healthy parents, healthy brothers and sister.

I am thankful to be healthy as well.

I am thankful to have H as my bf and best friend.

I am thankful that I am able to tell him anything.

I am thankful to have what I have now.

I am thankful to have laughter and good friends.

Above are what I wrote down on the date mentioned.

Cleaning day or Lady

2010-07-25T14:42:00.003+08:00

So yesterday already cleaned out a small space but lots of junk in my home. And now today from 9 am till almost 3 pm, cleaned up one room...the bedroom of my childhood (the one I shared with my older brother), my brothers room (T and F) and now my cousin E is staying in that room. Well, lots of junk too. About 6 small and large boxes full of trash from that one room. We did not touch any of the clothes as we do not know which ones are not needed or wanted anymore, so basically all those stuff is from the outside of the closet. We cleared it out, the tables, the drawers, and we have a space that can fit in the big stuff that my Dad have kept for years.....Also managed to squeeze in there is the big bag full of cloths that my Mum have kept for years. Both of them have some sort of something going on where each keeps things that they are going to use or need sometime in the future. Don't know when that is. Oh well, just have to sneak it out during the next cleaning session.

J did not help.....not much.....minuscule actually.

Cleared out the stuff yeah and guess what we found an empty bed....my grandma can sleep in there when she next comes for her checkup. She does not have to sleep on the couch in the living room then. And she can lecture my cousin E all night long hahahhahaa.

What else did we find? Well 21 lighters, 3 piggy banks with coins of 1 cent and etc, photos that I pinned up on the Styrofoam board, a small TV inside the closet, lots of pillows that my Mum said how come these are here? How come we have many pillows? (i dunno.......) and lots and lots of dust and trash and junks.

Yup, a good haul.

PS: End of cleaning activity with hanging up of the freshly washed curtains of the living room and new (old actually, been in storage) curtain for the bedroom. Ends at 4.16pm. I'm having chocolate drink with 1 piece of kuih pisang. Now gonna watch Book Of Eli and perhaps play games on FB. :D

Owl

2010-07-25T02:01:00.003+08:00

Still up....it is 2 am.

Today woke up and did some cleaning and organizing of the things near the ironing place. Emptied out all the drawers and organized the stuff, threw out a lot of stuff too but Mum wanted to keep some stuff (though I wanted to throw it out, since it has been there since forever and not been used). But can't win in that battle hehe. Anyway, the drawers were cleared of stuff and I now have 3 drawers for myself, and I put in my stuff that were in the boxes. Two more boxes to be cleared away but those are notes and books. My clothes are still in the luggage bag though. Hmmm.

Mum asked me to put away 2 suitcase into the store room. These suitcases were put behind the rattan couch, so you can't see it actually and it is not in the way. But Mum told me to go and put it into the store room and well I did try to reason with her but she won't have any of it therefore I had to go and do what was told...good girl huh...but I was stomping and banging stuff as I go but mostly because I thought I had the store room keys already but actually I did not. So I had to go back up and search for the keys, wasting time..... Not a good way to start of the day and I really need to work on controlling my temper eh...yup....

After lunch (which was a bit late) of course was feeling tired with the cleaning and everything. Fell asleep watching TV. Was suddenly awoken to go to church, but I was feeling sticky and yucky and need time to get ready. Long story short, did not go.

Fighting with 3 folder/files on this desktop that just do not want to be deleted.

A fight (?) with H....I said something which was taken wrongly and I apologized but I still felt bad because of the way we ended the conversation....I guess I can't simply say things that I meant as a joke as it could mean something else entirely to someone else. Makes me wary of saying anything now...no funny stuff.... :(

Anyway, I think I will do my thankful and grateful post tomorrow morning...I mean rewrite what I have written before in a notebook, here in this blog.

Lost it

2010-07-23T19:59:00.003+08:00

I lost it this evening, I lost my temper with the PTI/local M kids that have been bothering and disturbing my dogs. I took an umbrella with me, didn't even bother with shoes or sandals so I walk barefoot to the gate and closed it. I yelled at the kids from the staircase, asking them don't they have any homes to go to, don't they have anything better to do than to disturb my dogs.

I was mad at them, them disturbing my dogs have been happening since I was little, a little girl. These kids must be the next generation of the previous generation to have disturbed my dogs. Don't they have anything better to do? They play in the middle of the road, they dirty up the drive ways of the homes they play which is ours and my neighbour. Do you know that they (general here but I know it is one of them in the crowd) have written bad words on the driveway of my neighbour? Yeah they spray it on with red spray paint. Imagine the nerve and gallness of those kids doing that....If they do that to my driveway, I will take photos and send them to Hotline and the Police. I threatened to call the police on them if they come to my driveway again just now. I was that pissed off with them.

I am not happy with my behaviour of course. But I am telling it here honestly what I felt just now and I was mad, I could hit those kids and really hurt them....I came up to the house and took out my hockey stick from its wrapping. I don't know why I did that or what I could achieve by doing that...but I did it....being angry make me do stupid things and I don't like being angry. I feel that I could do something really stupid and kill someone if I am really really really angry. So I don't like being angry or becoming angry. But what can I do with those kids? What can I do to make them stop disturbing my dogs? My dogs certainly did not chase after them, they did not bite them or anything, my dogs didn't do anything to them at all.... so what the eff?

Leave my dogs alone!!

Thankful :)

2010-07-22T13:12:00.002+08:00

I am thankful and grateful for what I have :)

I am thankful and grateful to have a healthy body and good health, to have a beautiful and safe home, to have both my parents and that they are both healthy, safe and happy, to have my brothers and sister that are also healthy, safe and happy, to have pets that are cute and healthy, to have all the great people and things in my life.

It is very general, I hope to make it more specific soon....I used to write these before in a little notebook....I will start again :) and perhaps write back what I have written in the notebook in here yeah? Yeah hehehe.

Anyway, to make something else more specific, I am thankful and grateful to be able to have below things :)

My Neighbour Totoro
Shawn of the Dead
My Fair Lady -my dad requested it
Wallace and Gromit A Matter of Loaf and Death
The Secret (which is why I am making these lists/grateful thankful list
Romeo and Juliet (1968) -my dad requested it
Love Story (1970) - my dad requested it
How to Lose Friends and Alienate People
Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs (I always mistyped it to be Meahtballs...hmmm)
Princess Mononoke

And a few more that I have put away in my external newly bought disk :) which I am also thankful and grateful to have hehehhe.

How do I feel? I feel good, and I will keep it up ngeehehhee :D

.........

2010-07-14T10:07:00.002+08:00

I am trying to get all the episodes of Lie To Me, and I am now down to one more episode - episode 8 season 1- to make it all complete :) ....next is Medium :)

I find this series Lie to Me to be very interesting and I learn new things from it about body language and how to tell if someone is lying or not but of course I still need more information and do some research and reading on my own. But I really do enjoy it and can't wait for the third season hehehhee.

For Medium there are more than 2 seasons, so I will be spending a lot of time on that one too hehehhee...thinking about doing the same thing for CSI but we will see yeah hehehhe.

Fay told me about using Utorrent, I will be looking into that soon. For the moment I am quite happy with what I am using but of course if Utorrent is much better and much faster, I might go to that hehhehe.

My grandma is with us now at home and she told me some things of course and the conversation we had just now was really really funny. It was about her glasses and how she does not like to use it but if she does not use it this and this is what happened and when she use it this and this happened, something to to with lotion as hair gel, chicken shit as tinggat and plasticine as soft cake/bread :) pretty funny hehehhehe. Love her ♥

Ahahhaa...♥

2010-07-12T17:35:00.002+08:00

The Libra might appear a little shy and reserved on the first date. However, the Libra is a gentle, warm, refined person and a dreamer, who looks for balance and harmony everywhere. Their personal charm allows them to connect with people easily and they have a great social life.

People born under the sign of Libra are always willing to cooperate and help others, even to the point of setting aside their own objectives. The Libra's ruling planet is Venus, the planet of love, which endows them with a great idealism and romanticism. Their sense of fairness is strong and they will not tolerate injustices. Even though they hate aggressiveness and bad treatment, if it were necessary, they would show their aggressive vein and their strength.

Libra Dating Tip: Libras are very romantic and enjoy intimate moments. They will be very loving towards their partner and their natural sweetness makes for a harmonious date. To fall in love Libra people search for the ideal partner. They dream of having a strong, ambitious, outstanding and triumphant partner.

Another dating advice: A Libra cannot tolerate aggressive or tense situations. At times they prefer to remain silent rather than argue. Don't hold it against them during your first date.

Nothing Much

2010-07-08T01:40:00.004+08:00

Just did some skipping today ....

and a bit of crying....just now....

Watched Sex and the City on HBO......Carrie said that she is lonely....coincidence or am I just thinking too much?

Another day gone by

2010-07-06T20:37:00.003+08:00

Did some skipping with the skipping rope....

Drank the green tea coffee, was not hungry afterward but I ate slices of banana cake with another mug of coffee anyway...*sigh*

Watched Toy Story 1, played games on FB.

Uploaded the pictures from my camera to FB.

Charged my handphone as the battery was almost dead...no sound from it at all, even though someone said it will...that did not happen....I charged the battery because I saw that I had a miscall from my brother but nothing came of it, guess it was just a wrong call....

Tried to watch SATC dvds on my laptop but the first cd I put in did not show any pictures, the second cd showed pictures but no sound....*sigh* so can't take that with me when its time to go.

No news yet about the posting thingy.

Will do more skipping tomorrow, vacuum the living room, clean up the kitchen, organize my papers.

Yup..... :)

Wheeee :D

2010-07-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

While others are busy and excited with the football result of Brazil and Netherlands, I am not..I am or was busy and excited and happy with other more important stuff hehhehe.

Talked to H :D that happened and I am happy...~ wheeee~ :D XoxoxoxoX

I am happy and am singing along to the Korean group SNSD...even though I don't know if I pronounce it correctly but sounds almost the same hahaha :)

In other things, I bought new pajamas the other day and thought that I could fit into it since it is the largest size there (L) (yup I am getting bigger *sigh*) but I was wrong....well half wrong....the shorts are fine with me, the top half was ok too except for the middle part...urgh....will pass this pajama to J.....owh well...I can buy a new pajama then hehehhee :) the bright side of it isn't it and well okie I will continue with my fat loss mission :)

I Can Do This :D

Bitter coffee and my future

2010-07-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

Went to buy some things with my friend Fay, thought that the item was as advertised (the price) but when went to pay it was more expensive and not as advertised. Did not want to make a big deal about it so left the shop. They did not have any stock on the benzoil peroxide 2.5% that I wanted. I gave my stock to my brother. Need to find it elsewhere....but where?

Anyway, went to Coffee bean to try the salad that Fay was so into...didn't think much about it, wanted to try something new, did not look at the price ahahahha mistake there....salad was RM15.50 plus the chicken extra RM4.00. The drink I asked for was not like what I expected it to be. It tasted different.....bitter....ahhahaha. That cost Rm10.30 I think...why there is a 30 cent price I don't know.

Was called by Mom while there, was asked about posting..our names for posting have arrived and Mom asked where I wanted. I asked for P1....basically I don't really care for the money, I just want my basic amenities....the whole conversation just made me feel more nervous and scared really about my future and feeling bad too as before I said that I can be anywhere and can make it work anywhere but there I was asking for P1. Hmmm I dunno, hope and pray for the best and I will do my best as well.

I feel so nervous........I so want to talk to H.

Driving

2010-06-30T16:07:00.002+08:00

Went to do some errands today, went to the bank, got a broadband for my brother, went to another shopping complex for clothes and then have KFC for lunch. After that went home.

I felt like going to the toilet while waiting for my brother to look for his clothes. I was browsing for some movies to see and I felt it. I ignore it of course and I did not want to go and do my business so to speak in the toilets there, not comfortable you know, with all the smells and so on...Anyway, I ignore it. It went away...the feeling that you feel when you want to poop :P.

Went to KFC, and after eating, I felt like really really have to go to the toilet...Urgh...go home now, go home!! Went to the car, urgh........traffic again...UrghHHH...it was not comfortable at all ...driving while holding it in ahhahaha.....

At last was home, I put down my things and rushed into the bathroom hahaha.

You know what happened next of course I don't have to tell you the details hehehe.

But it was so sudden...urgh...do not want to be in that situation again..... :D

Did I gross you out? ....... .... mwahahhaha *evil laugh*

mmmm

2010-06-29T01:29:00.001+08:00

missing someone....been one week already...

*sigh*

Tambirang!!

2010-06-28T09:19:00.002+08:00

Last night my dad confronted my grandma (this is not Tama). My dad confronted her about the smelly, rotting fish tail inside the fridge that was not in the freezer. Since the fish tail was not in the freezer so it became smelly as it was on the way to rottenness isn't it? It smelled really bad.

So my dad confronted her and she denied it. She would not do such thing she said. And she is telling the truth and that she does not know how to lie as she goes to confession at church...always. Does that not make you gag??

And she pointed the fault to my Lil bro. Which is asking for trouble and really stupid. I have never seen my bro cook fish...ever...because it needs to be defrosted, cleaned, fried or whatever, then the oil need to be put away and so on. Means there's a lot to do just to eat so usually he will cook something easy. So he could not be the culprit. My sis? Ahahhahahaa......me? Asking for trouble again, I just got here on the 22nd, and so far I have been very lazy in cooking so I did not touch anything inside the fridge that needs defrosting. So which leaves her isn't it? She cooks so early every day, and its fish everyday so........but she goes to confession..always so can't be her too right? My cats then? mwahahhaha....

She is like this, doing something, wasting something and when you confront her, she denies it. She is the only angel in this house as the rest of us are devils....*sigh*

My Luck Will Come Soon

2010-06-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

Went to dinner at STAR since my lil bro did not want to go so I went in his place. Both my mom and dad bought those tickets for lucky draw, they bought a lot, but not one got hit...Urghh and I so wanted the flat screen tv. Ahahaha well actually not really but it is ok to think and want big hehehehe...but I think if I really really want it and do things to attract it (the power of attraction or something, the Secret) I can really have it :).

Mmmm something to look into isn't it? I've seen it on Oprah but was never really interested in it, but recently talked to a friend about it. He is learning all about it and really want to do it, so I could look into it as well yeah? Couldn't hurt doing a little bit of investigation hehehhee. I want to attract good and big things in my life, so why not eh :)

Anyway, I am still awake now because my lil bro is watching football now. I'll be going to bed soon when I can't stay awake much longer. Actually, I should not be staying up at all, we have lunch or dinner later today Saturday with Tama. Seafood Yummm :D

Speaking about Tama, she is doing well. She is feeling bored here I know since she is sleeping in the afternoon. She rarely sleeps in the afternoon, she is always moving about and have something to do. I am glad and happy she is fine and healthy, she is taking her medicine too....though still have to remind her to drink lots of water. Speaking about water, I suddenly am feeling very very thirsty.....mmmm water......hehehhe

Home :)

2010-06-25T13:44:00.002+08:00

I have been home since the 22nd, was out and about with my good-good friend Fay :D, went to have Yoyo Ice, something they do not have in SM, which is a pity and their big loss hehhehe because it taste very very good Yummm and then went to Secret Recipe for dinner. Nope I did not have a slice of cake for dinner, but I got the chicken with creamy cheese inside and chips :). I ordered the fruity punch drink, but mostly the taste was banana taste.

Talking about banana, something really funny happened or rather was said between me and Fay heheheh actually she said it which was funny ahahha coming from her, but that is what I like about her, she is not fake and we can laugh and talk about things openly :D ngehehhehe I will not look at bananas the same again mwahahhahahha.

Anyway, I got pictures but have not uploaded it into my laptop, soon though...soon.....

I am watching CSIs, House, movies on TV, documentaries, AFC wahahaha the food channel makes me hungry, I really want to lose weight now while I am here, free with not much to do hehhehee. Also watching Biggest Loser, hoping it will motivate me to move it move it. I WILL!!

For H

2010-06-20T01:57:00.001+08:00

gee gee gee gee gee ..... hehehhe XOXOXO

Urghhhh

2010-06-18T16:07:00.002+08:00

*sigh*

Tomorrow I have exam...I don't think I can read all the notes by tonight. I don't want to panic, it will only make it worse. But how?? 2 weeks worth of lecture notes, 1 day for revision and 4 essays to do. What happened on the other nights? Well assignments, looking for information and slacking off (my fault) :(

Can't turn back time, can't take back the time wasted.

So I will read on.

I just don't want to fail this exam.

Lord help me .....

Parcel sent...

2010-06-16T20:05:00.005+08:00

Really if you want something to be done, you have to do it yourself.

I called the taxi driver that usually sent us to school and asked him to collect me and 3 others to send our parcels. Yesterday's fiasco ended and all my parcels are sent hehehhe well sitting in the post office :) will be sent soon.

So I don't have to worry about sending those parcels anymore, can concentrate on my assignments and exam and the packing and arrangements of going home...yeah :D

Hmmm there was something that happened this morning, I behaved badly, I let my anger or irritation or whatever overcome me. She just can't seem to make up her mind. First want to be fully following the protocol of having a glass of water, or rather having the glass. Then she said no need. Then she said need. Yesterday she put it away. Then today she said need the bloody glass. It was not brought back yesterday so it was not washed. But since she said need for today, and then she did not want to move from her seat to go and wash the glass, instead yelling at another person in front to put it on the tray..unwashed....I just had to go and collect the glass and rinse it under a tap, wipe it clean, and placed it on the tray. The glass would have been cleaner had she made up her mind of having the glass continuously used.

And now, she came back from shopping (I thought she would have at least brought a parcel to send at the post office but nope) and told me that she bought the water in the small cup. Similar to the ones served in airplanes only a bit bigger. So...no need for the glass then right....*sigh*

Be calm....

2010-06-15T18:28:00.002+08:00

Those who want to send their stuff back to their hometowns can send today as a van from the post office will come and collect the things from us here at out hostel. So yesterday I have collected all my parcels and brought it down to level 2. Today after class, at 4.30 pm, with the help of Kak L, we brought down all the parcels (hers and mine) to the ground floor. And then we waited,

and waited,

and waited...and suddenly they came....the van bearing the sign Pos Laju.....

The driver came out and saw the airwaybills that we were holding and said that they could not take our parcels as they have no relation to Post Malaysia. So then why did they come?

Miscommunication.........which can be avoided in the first place isn't it? Don't know which side miscommunicated but it happened already and my parcels have to stay in the common room for the night, along with the rest of the parcels of my coursemates.

hehhehe :D

2010-06-14T23:33:00.003+08:00

Very unexpected the events of tonight. Hehehee :) but I like it ;P thanks H.

I packed almost all my things already, carried it down to the second floor so that easy to be carried down tomorrow when the van comes. I got help from Kak L too.

H sent a box for me but using Pos Laju, so it was expensive (thanks H, I appreciate it a lot :D) so I know that at least one box is guaranteed to arrive within this week. Hopefully hehhehe.

I finished the ending for the essay yesterday night. Now on to the next 4 things to do before Thursday morning.....I Can Do This !!!!

Busy packing

2010-06-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

So need to send a lot of stuff back home on Tuesday. I have sent 2 boxes myself, 1 box is with H, and I have packed 4 boxes and 1 hockey stick today, starting from 5.30pm to 12 pm. My back is aching.

Mid morning and afternoon I was doing the individual assignment, almost finishing...one...I got stuck on the ending. *sigh* I want to finish it tonight...if I can....Have to do one more plus another and the group assignment as well.....then have to pass up on Thursday morning. Tomorrow night got BBQ with the rest, perhaps I can go for a while, eat then go back up here and finish my work. Yup :)

Tama

2010-06-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

Tama discharged out already today hehehhee.

Tama

2010-06-08T20:59:00.003+08:00

Tama already been operated on this morning, fusion of C1 and C2. Mum said she is awake already in the afternoon. Just now saw message from J that she will be staying with Tama in the hospital till morning.

My grandmother is strong, I know she will make it through and become herself again soon.

In other things, I sent another box just now, 6.17 kg which is equal to RM28.00. I checked online for the fist parcel I sent on the 27th, now is the 8 of June, and the only update on that website is up to the 29th only. Hmmm...what happen to my parcel? Where is it now? How come no updates?

Anyway, will be updating with news of Tama again soon.

New Camera :D

2010-06-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

I bought a new camera today hehhehee...hopefully it will last more than my last one. Expect pictures here then hehheehe if they are deemed right to be posted here hehehhe.

I tried and fell in 'like' with a pair of high heels sold in Vincci in MV today too. It was on sale though still expensive after the discount...drumroll......RM71.20. (o.O) But it was comfortable and I felt stable wearing it, it was not wobbly like other high heels I tried on there. But the price oh lordy....I might buy it when I have a salary :) but don't know when I will wear those kind of high high heels.

But I like it.

I don't need it but I like it.....mmmmmm......

Oh and watched Letters to Juliet, cried watching it because there were quite a lot of touching scenes in there. Love it!! :D

Busy Bee

2010-06-03T17:38:00.003+08:00

Today had the interview in Putrajaya...I was in and out of the interview room in 15 minutes only, less than my friend who went in before me, her time was about 30 minutes. I'm not sure if I did well or not, don't know when will know the result but hopefully I did ok. I got confused in certain things but in other things I think I did good...oh well, hopefully I won't have to go to another interview, the same as this one.....

Anyway, got back around 1.45pm, usually I will have my coffee then and I so wanted to drink the new coffee drink I bought the other day...for health purposes hehhehee..but since I have another course to go to, have to go straight to it and forgo my coffee...so I have a bit of a headache during the session, but I drank lots of water....and thankfully the course just now was interesting :) interesting for me that is even though I did yawn a couple of times but those are because of tiredness hehehhehe.

So have to go again for the course tomorrow and next week and the whole next next week again and then have a test on the 19th. We also have assignments to do during this course, 2 are individuals and 4 are group work (argh...group work again??)....urgh I so am not looking forward to that group work....

But to be positive in this things, I am so looking forward to go back home :D I have 2 more weeks to be here (plus and minus a few days) and then off I go back home hehhehhee.

So I will do my best in those assignments and the test and have fun while I am still here, make up for whatever wrong I have done and try to mend a friendship that seems broken. And of course have few more pictures and memories and talks with H :D

P.S: the coffee is green coffee 800 and is said to help with weight control (yeah I have problem with that, so??) and I have to drink it everyday for 18 days. I should weight myself but I don't have any scale here but roughly estimating my weight to be more than it should be hahahhaha. But I have only drank it once which was yesterday, today I did not managed to do so, I drank Nescaffe instead lol..so tomorrow I will continue with the green coffee :)

Skybridge, Petronas Twin Towers

2010-05-30T20:11:00.008+08:00

Went to the Skybridge with friends yesterday :D also watched Prince of Persia...nice movie, I like it :)

Anyway, the ticket to go to the Skybridge is free therefore always finish early...people are queuing as early 6.30am, so I read in the net hehehhee so thankfully (very thankful) to one of my coursemates' sister who is working there, she kept a ticket for us :D yeah :D and thankfully I was asked to come along hehhehehehe...thanks!

Nice eh? hehhehe

In other news, talked to H, feels much better...

Just a video 2

2010-05-26T18:12:00.002+08:00

Another video...then later I fell asleep....enjoying the sounds and flashes of light hehehhee....listen to the awesomeness of it all.

If I have a camera, I would have taken pictures of the lightning :D

Just a video...

2010-05-26T18:06:00.003+08:00

Not a good quality video, taken with my handphone.

I find it fascinating, the loud sounds and flashes of light....but C get scared....(eww)...I think E was too (double ewww).

Anyway, this was a few days ago, or was it a week or so ago...

P.S: i don't know how to make it be the right side up...umm...yeah..how?

What should I do?

2010-05-26T17:27:00.003+08:00

Was woken up this morning by the sound of music from a handphone, belonging to C. It was loud music. The rest of us were still sleeping when she woke up and then she played her songs loudly. Is that.....I don't know, but I would not do that to them, to her. I will try and keep very quiet since they are still sleeping, but this...seems like she just doesn't care.....

And last night, when I wanted to watch some movies on my laptop, I wore earphones but if they are very noisy, I could not hear the sounds from my laptop, even with earphones and full blast volume, which means they are very very very noisy....why were they noisy, the 2 so called perfect creatures? they were noisy because they find it very hilarious that they are chatting with the music lecturer. UGH!! Laughing like hyenas....

E is really getting on my nerves same as C.

I have to remind myself that this will all end soon. A few more weeks to go.

~ post regarding H, typed, editted but then deleted..... :( ~

Mouth Ulcer

2010-05-13T20:21:00.002+08:00

It Hurtssss......to swallow water, food...even to chew food hurts.. :'(

I thought my mouth hurts because there's a tear somewhere on my gum due to using a new toothbrush with quite a hard bristle.....but I checked just now, there is a small spot at the back of my throat...urgh...mouth ulcer...it even hurts when I yawn....even moving my tongue....

I think I had the pain since Monday....when will I get better?

Sunday Stuff

2010-05-09T15:21:00.002+08:00

An old picture but it is appropriate hehehhee. Sums up the day spent with him. Thanks :D XoXoX

3.5.10 Munday

2010-05-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

Wow during class this afternoon, we were suppose to discuss, all 10 of us, on how to arrange the classroom and also the combined lesson plan for year 4 and 5. Kinda like a simulation for when we will be in the pedalaman setting, combined classes could probably happen. So anyway, we were suppose to discuss all of us. But when it was time to discuss, and we did not have enough time, a few of them say rest first. Well, we don't have enough time...and you want to rest??

Fine, the rest of us, about 5 of us wanted to do the discussion, but one of the 5 of us were having bad mood, not really helping, snapping at people and not really listening to suggestions (suggestions made by myself) to you I say go and fly kite, go and count the rumputs....then later one of the 5 wanted to continue doing the work that was supposed to be finished since last week, and thus not participating at all in the discussion...to you I say....*sigh* no words la to express it....one of the 5 also not really suggesting anything but we used her laptop so I dunno....that leaves only 2 of us right...hmmm....what happens to the rest??

Well that leaves another 5 right, ok, so the other 5, one of them went to pray (fine), one went missing for a while, maybe she was sitting there but I did not hear anything from her...the rest 2 of them, well they were also doing the work that was supposed to be done since last week. And one of the 3 was the person that said rest first and then nothing from them till the end of discussion.

Now after discussion, after we had a simple (not interesting) lesson plan, one of the 3 came and sat with us, KL said you become the teacher ok...the girl said nothing just smiled her lame smile...then suddenly said no....(well she did not participate in the discussion at all, the least she could do is to present it isn't it?)...the other 2 of the 3 did not do or say anything...then the person that went to pray was asked to present, she also kept quiet but when it was time to present already, she suddenly said no.

Here is the more interesting part. None of us that discussed wanted to present, including myself as I thought why do all the work and let the others slide by? Idiotic reasoning but I was kinda rebelling then....so we waited and waited, no one moving, the lecturer already sounding us off, I did not want to move....felt the pull to move but then suddenly one of the 3 came out.....the small one not the person that said rest dulu....

Relieved but still I was so bored and fed up by then, and had a headache (no coffee the whole morning and afternoon)....I did not care to smile at anyone after that....urgh...still have to do this again this coming morning....hopefully everything will go on smoothly, fun and less irritation and annoying people or happenings.

Yes this morning and the whole day will be fun and interesting,....truth and acceptance.....

From her....

2010-04-27T18:27:00.003+08:00

"She is pretty, but she has acne...."

This is her talking about another teacher, looking at the person punya Fb account.....

From her sentence, it means that the person she is talking about is not pretty then right, because of acne....if she does not have acne, then she is pretty....

Before this, many weeks and months before, she said this: "Pakai BB cream pun teda guna, kalo bida, bida la tu"

Urgh!!

Superficial Person Alert!! Ne-No-Ne-No.....

Beautiful Sunday

2010-04-25T23:33:00.008+08:00

It rained for a while but then it was clear for while, enough for me to make my way to H :). Went to the nearest shopping complex, went and look around at the hardware store, I like being there, so many useful things to improve your home. If the store was near my home, I would definitely try many of the things sold there to improve my home hehhehe therefore spending a lot in that store. H likes it too hehehhee. So that is a plus.

Anyway, went to have dinner at Nando's. Ate a lot. Talked a lot. Really enjoyed it. Hope it was enjoyable for him too.

Owh found out just now that the thing that me and my other colleagues was supposed to have next weekend was pushed further up...Gah....so next weekend I will busy myself with studying etc....no H next weekend as he has a big game on Saturday and most probably need to rest on Sunday. He told me this already so I won't be bothering him next weekend, at least not much hehehhe.

Oh yeah I fell down last Friday and hurt my left knee, scraped it, it bleed a bit but better now. It just look reddish and a few bruising on both my knees. I actually have pictures but kinda lazy in uploading it hahaha. Soon yeah if you want to see it that is hehehe.

Long Assembly

2010-04-22T21:34:00.003+08:00

Today had another assembly, a long one, an educational one. But the ending was funny though. We were praised by the disciplinarian, saying that even though we have just gotten back from practicum, we were not arrogant at all and still remember our lecturers and greeted them nicely. Unlike others that have came back from practicum and turn a blind eye towards the lecturers. Silly them for doing that. No sense. Anyway after that he said he wanted to see all K**Is students. Only 8 of all of us went to the assembly, including of course yours truly, but all 3 ketua kelas was absent. And he wanted the kedatangan too he said. Ha...busted right...later the 8 of us came together and said that we might as well go and own up before he found out, but when we went to see him, he did not really want to see us, but the new batch hahahhaa.....thank goodness :D

Tomorrow, I want to bring along the book to study. Or else it would be very boring indeed.

Hmm thinking aloud, Since this Monday I have already met him, does it mean I can't meet him again later this coming weekend? Have I used up the quota? Is there a quota? Hmmm....

Munday, Tosday and Wesnesday :P

2010-04-21T13:27:00.002+08:00

So I met with him on Monday night, belanja him dinner with the new pizza...it does not look like the picture but the taste is good...very good...I was so hungry that time, that I ordered spaghetti and finished it all by myself hahhaaa.

Anyway, managed to talk to him about this thing and I feel a lot better. He will do his best and I will do my best as well. I really want this with him...Tuesday morning he sent me a message :D i love it, i looked at it from time to time. Silly of me isn't it but it just shows how much that one message means so much to me, how he means so much to me.

Wednesday, have a talk on drugs, very good talk. Full of information and own experience on the job experience. Very good. But wanted to see more pictures but oh well...thinking of going out later to go and see movie but we will see first, jadi or not.

I feel like my tummy has become smaller ahahhahaa but maybe just my imagination. Need to work on this too, as well as start studying for the exam in less that a month. Oooooohhh wish me luck!!!

Sunday

2010-04-18T14:05:00.002+08:00

Receive sms, got ready, went out to lunch, tapau, went to Watson, went to DMall, looked at Cds, looked at cameras, waited and waited, received call, went out of DMall, got into car, was sent back to hostel.

From 11.30 am to 1.++ pm.

Fun times.

Thanks for the food and drink.

One more day

2010-04-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

One more day, tomorrow, Sunday...for whatever it is suppose to happen today that did not happen because of something which I was not so important that I need not know about it, that I was not told to wait for him.

One more day tomorrow.

I was so happy, looking forward to it, yesterday, that I did not make any plans at all, all because wanted to spend the time with you, did not make plans to go out with the others, waited all morning today, called, waited all afternoon, called.....nothing.

One more day......

Today and Tomorrow

2010-04-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

End of practicum today. Sad but my sadness came a bit late, the tears did not come until later, and even that I tried not to let it out. Those kids are sweet, sometimes bikin panas, but sweet. I wish them all the best, the teachers and students.

I gave the kids a parting gift each, just a simple one, pencil, eraser and smiley badges each. A few of them got notebooks and 2 of them got books on Science and History. They said they like :) I'm glad they like it. Hope to post the pictures soon on FB hehehhe.

On another note, I hope tomorrow will happen like what has been said would happen.

I hope. I look forward to it.

But if not,......... :'(

haiya.....

2010-04-16T01:50:00.002+08:00

they did not want to start wrapping the presents early, so now last minute, wrapping...all three of them. it is now almost 2 am. I can't sleep as they are noisy....but i will try to sleep. can't wake up early later....

now especially E keep on complaining and talking in a loud voice. the other 2 keep on talking as well, egging her on. Sot!!

*Sigh*

I don't care, i will tarik my tilam down and try to sleep juga.

My good news and a rant

2010-04-12T19:06:00.002+08:00

Well, today during meeting, my cooperating teacher for Major said that looking at the exam result of last year and this year's PKSR, after I taught the pupils, their marks showed an improvement. So good for me :D she said. Yeah!!

I wouldn't know it because I don't have their pass year exam result for Maths, and all I saw from their PKSR for Maths was that none of them got an A. Well if the Maths teacher said that, I must have done something right hehehhehehe. I am happy for myself and wanted to share my good news.

I can't really share with my roommates as they are not really supportive. Couldn't share with H as he wouldn't pick up his phone. As for my family, I know my Mum will say well none of them got As.......oh well...pat myself on the back...pat pat...ngehehehhehe.

Ok enough gloating now for a rant!!

So she played her music quite loud today, during the time that most of us want to rest and take a nap. Actually, those are the time that she also takes the nap, but today she played her music loudly even though 3 of us wanted to take a nap. Very selfish isn't it? She played it loudly until I could not take it anymore that I straight away went to take my bath. THEN...did she lower down the volume and went to sleep herself. I played my music...then suddenly she woke up and turned off her music. Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet betul punya orang.

Result...sort off

2010-04-10T18:50:00.002+08:00

Major: Maths - average observation result from cooperating teacher and average by lecturer. Lecturer always ask if the lesson plans are interesting or not, but does not really give hints which part needs to be improved on and not a lot of help being given.

Minor: English - very good observation result from both cooperating teacher and lecturer. Lecturer said that pity I am not majoring in English as she would nominate for Cemerlang. Glad and happy that I could/have chance of getting cemerlang. Not really after that but still....

But the important thing here is that my result for major is not so good, only average (good I guess and am happy to get at least that) but why such a difference between major and minor result? hmmm..

And heard that most probably need 1 more observation done for major. Urghhh...

I learned something yesterday....those that went through Form 6 are better suited to be teachers. .. . .. . .. . .ok. I didn't go to Form 6. hmmmm....

Went home very late yesterday for the first time ever and I had to fill up a form to say that I came in late. Urghhh...hope nothing bad will happen from that.

Mixed nuts

2010-04-04T12:04:00.004+08:00

This post will be a jumble of things mixed together...yeah like none of my other posts were about many things put together....

Anyway, just want to say something about yesterday at a mall/supermarket/Mydin....at the checkout line, there were so many people and the place was crowded and not enough space to move around but forward. So of course the best thing to do is to wait patiently for your turn. Which we all did, understandably some of our baskets would poke the person in front..there was not so much space!! Have to be patient. But one big lady or rather woman because the way she acted was no way a lady, she became so mad at another old lady because she said the old lady pushed her and pinched her as well. Wow. She wanted to hit the old lady!! A guy maybe a family member but I don't know which one, stopped her but she continued to verbally assault the old lady. Wow. imagine it, a very crowded place and there she was running off with her mouth saying she is not afraid if the old lady wants to have a punch fight with her, to look at the scars on her arm as that showed she was not afraid of a fight. Sheeeeeeeeeshhh.

I looked at the nearest cashier and she kept her face blank. Good for her, and I think most of us didn't want to look at each other, we were embarrassed for the woman...goodness...and also thank goodness there were no tourist in the shop...but then again here I am telling it all ahahhahaha. Oh well, it was the first time I had encountered such an incident.

The reason I went to the supermarket was because my roomie said there were lots of things sold in bulk, great for presents. So I reluctantly went (I had wanted to go to MV, but did not dare go alone). I got coin bags and hair bands. The coin bags were fine but I was disappointed with the hair bands because the bands had become loose already...like it is an old very very old stock. Ugh....hopefully the kids wouldn't mind it but I still feel bad for giving those to them. Ah well. I'll look at other places for presents next time. These presents are for the token thing I had started with them. mmmmmm where else to look ...the smiley badges are nice but again I don't dare go there alone. But if I have to, then well.......we'll see.

sleep is important

2010-03-27T22:10:00.003+08:00

and I also do not like to be woken up because of unnecessary noise such as people talking out loud, making jokes, watching YouTube or video online on FB with the volume up and no sense to use the earphones.

SHIT!!

No this was last night. I tried to go back to sleep but just could not do it.

I picked up a book and read....and read...and read....

She said oooohhh Fiona bangun sudah.....(idiot)......

I read and read...she keeps watching videos online with the volume up.....

I read and read.............then when she was sleepy already (but I wasn't anymore) she said something about sleep after she comes back from the toilet.....I think she was talking to me but i was reading remember....I kept quiet....she came back.....went up to her bed....and.......turned on her radio phone thingy and listened to music..............is that sleeping then??

So I read and read....then she turns it off at I don't know what time but then later I became so sleepy but managed to look at the time before turning in.....it was 2.45 am. I sleep ..............

and woke up suddenly because of the light...not from the sun ....my other roommate didn't turn it off (she was still awake and chatting online when I went to sleep...for the second time) and I looked at the time....it was 6 am. Wow....nicely done......

And just now at 8.30pm...they came back from dinner and turned off the light in the room saying Earth Hour....Earth Hour my ass....

TGIF

2010-03-26T21:53:00.003+08:00

Yeahh...it is Friday :D the weekends are finally here....

My Maths lect. came today for my class at 11 am. But because of the sports the kids have to train for kawad and perbarisan. So from 37 girls left only 4. I still have to continue with the lesson because of the lecturer. So I taught them. Remember I only have 4 students at that time.

So afterwards, my lecturer gives me his feedback. Not good at all. He said that I have a very monotonic voice and I should raise it up and lower it down, have a variety, shout and speak softly....but...why should I shout when I only have 4 kids there with me? Hmmm.

Then he said I should walk around the classroom....ummm...only 4 kids remember...I asked them to sit together in front, so I don't have to walk around the classroom...why should I? I would look crazy if I do that when I only have 4 kids with me....sot....

Then he said why didn't I use LCD for the questions that we did in class just now? Ummm....I already told you, it was suppposed to be group work questions but because almost all of them have to leave the classroom, and I know 2 out of 4 kids have problems with doing the word problems themselves, that was why we did the discussion one question at a time. And it would not work if I show the questions using LCD because how then would the kids underline and circle the necessary information? Can he said.... how??? Aduiiiiii sottttt....

Then lastly he said he did not give marks for today's lesson because only 4 kids with me. He will come again next week on Wednesday. Our sports day is on Thursday, and I am sure they will have a last minute practice of kawad or perbarisan or whatever which will make the students disappear from class. Which means most probably I will be left with 4 kids again on Wednesday...ah never mind he said.....THEN...why not give marks for today's class??????

ARGHHHHHHHhh...............

Then he said something about wanting proof of what we have done in this school in terms of co-curriculum and stuff... so he wants pictures....got those pictures from A. I looked through it just now...ahhahahaha...guess what...not so many pics of me..but lots of pics of the owh-so-pretty-me-I-am-perfect-kalau-sudah-bida-mimang-bida-pakai-BB cream-pun-sama-juga-bida (that was what she said to me in Guardian today). Dunno if she was referring to me or to someone else...but really, what a rude and bad thing to say. Well, I rather be that *bida* and work on my insides and be sincere and do the best I can even though I know I make mistakes than be a pretty face and not pretty in the insides, always making fun of other people saying ooo look how fat she is...ugly...the way she is walking....her face looks old...lots of acne...he is not handsome but has a house, car, motorcycle....he is not handsome but his father is a pastor....he has lots of money but he is short .....so many guys want me....kura-kura....fat.....blabalabalabnallala....yuck!

So anywhoo....not so many pictures of me but can do la...the reason not so much pictures is because I don't like asking people to take my picture...especially her...because when she takes my picture, she will make it look bad...like the pictures of me that she took in Cameron...turned out bad most of it. And when she takes my picture she has this look on her face that she feels somehow disgusted....hate that..or maybe I am paranoid....hmmm....

Found out that the exam could probably be in 3 or 2 weeks after practical ends...so the end could be near...then have interviews etc....if it is true that we will be posted as soon as after the interview, then I could have less than 3 or 4 months here near him....so near yet so far....I wonder how it will be after posting and if I get a place far away......will he look for me? Try to call or send letters or emails or sms? hmmmmm....

Wednesday.......

2010-03-24T17:49:00.002+08:00

Ugh...meeting finish at 3.30 pm, went and tapau food for lunch...oooohhh dinner...so hungry...

Got into a taxi, asked to be driven back to hostel using the same directions given to other taxi drivers. Said ok, but then proceeded to take us round and round...finally had to tell him to go into UM and out the next and go to the place next to the stadium. Keep playing with his knobs...err..radio knobs. Keep putting the volume up high when there is a song, lowering the volume when its advertisement and changing the channel, not really concentrating on driving.

Total taxi fare that we had to pay was Rm9.30 when it would usually cost us Rm8.00 below.

Crazy!!

Tomorrow we have sports raptai, full raptai so most probably no class till afternoon. Have to wear baju sukan. Friday most probably I will be observed for Maths, hopefully there won't be any problems or the school won't do another raptai.

No sms or return call last nite.

Missing something

2010-03-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

I miss home. I miss my cats. I miss cooking in the kitchen, making up my own 'recipe' ahahha kinda...i miss eating good food.

Today I had breakfast and lunch. My dinner is a bun and a few biscuits with coffee, my second one today. I had tea with breakfast. Too much caffeine?

I soooo want to read right now, just lie down and read but I have to finish this teaching aids first. I want to do a lot of things with them tomorrow but looking at the kids today, they were tired and not really focusing on the lesson. They had a kawad session and training for sports this morning before my lesson. Same thing will be happening tomorrow so .... hmmm.

Tuesday Tosday Tuesday

2010-03-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

So I called but was told will get back to me later by sms, but none received.

I called just now and it rings till voicemail. Second time I tried and it went straight to voicemail. Either turned off after saw my name or ran out of batteries.

Will I get any sms or call back to return the call tonight? Who knows, wait and see.

Now I have to figure out how to do the activity I have planned out for the kids, I need to print out a lot of words or I have to print out the outline and fill in the space with black marker pen. Or I might just write out all the words that I want. Yeah that sounds easy enough. But what about the pictures? With colours? Print out in grayscale and colour it myself? Yeah doable, I might just do that.

FYI: I went to Lowyat and got the speaker before I realized the printer needed inks. That I admit I did not check.

FYI2: I enjoy reading Lamebook ahahhaa.....fun. Google it and see what it is about.

Monday Munday Monday

2010-03-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

Had trouble waking up early this morning but I managed to get up early anyway. Felt like not enough sleep but have to go to school.

Feel very sleepy during the assembly, maybe because of the breakfast that I had or not enough sleep hehhee. Nothing interesting happened except for the announcement about the sports that they will be having soon. Some students or all of them will be out of the classroom to have some practise. This will be before recess but some said that it would continue after recess, don't really know. Have to wait and see. I have 2 Maths class before recess. I have to be observed by the lecturer 2 more times, he said he will be coming this Friday, hopefully I can have the class and nothing else happen with the projector.

Observation for the English class, none yet from the lecturer but only once from the cooperating teacher. I hope I did well enough for her in today's class though I guess I could do better. I could always do better. I have no idea what to do for activity for the English Literature class on Wednesday, thinking of doing scramble sentences, group work and arranging the picture cards and retelling of the story in front of the class. Hmmmmm. Dunno.

I have prepared almost everything needed for tomorrow Maths class but I was told (kinda) by the Maths teacher that I have to do the checking of the Maths questions with the pupils. Check the marks and so on. Have to wait and see also.

So about the thing yesterday, I have apologized and asked him something but no reply. Busy or don't want to reply, dunno. I'm battling in deciding whether to call or not. Should I call?

As a bee.

2010-03-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

I thought too much about it...again...and have obsessed about it, surfed the net about it, thoughts of what ifs etc...

And what do I get from all of it? Nothing. Nothing but tears and a feeling that I might have pushed him farther away.

Why do I keep doing it? Because I wonder and wanted to know why. I should understand and yes I do understand, but sometimes I just wonder why.

Going Back

2010-03-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

soon. Really not looking forward to it.

Just have to remind myself that it will be over soon and on to new places and experiencing hopefully much better experience, but I am thankful for the experience I have now, teaches me tolerance and acceptance...which I still need work on...everyone should work on that.

I gave my cats a bath this afternoon...not fun. But they smell really nice now and their furs smooth and soft :). I will miss them dearly, like I would miss my family and the comforts of home and familiarity of it all.

First there were many,

Nights of laughter and openness and getting to know one another,

Second came the thrice a week thing,

Third was the twice a week,

Now it varies with once a week or,

Nothing at all,

If I didn't seek you out.

What will happen then,

If I didn't seek you out?

Would I hear from you again?

Absence makes the heart grow fonder,

Or forget.

I hope its the first,

Not the latter.

I'll try not to think much of it.

Lessons learned

2010-02-28T10:53:00.003+08:00

What I found out this week:

My lessons are quite boring (ahahhaa have to change ahahhahaa)
I have to make more teaching aids, and have to be colourful and interesting and fun and easy to understand
I worry a lot over my kids (yep they are my kids now) about their coming exam, why they have trouble with completing their homework, why some have the handwriting like chickens, why some look at me confused but when asked if they get it or not, they say yes
I eat a lot (hahahhahah have to change hahahhaha)
I spent a lot of money already but still want to buy stuff for other people. Yesterday I thought of buying a school bag for my little cousin (hahaha how to bring back?), a pencil case for sis (though I already got her dangling ear-rings (sp?)), more clothes for sis and perhaps Mum too....hmmmm
I tend to lose a bit of temper (ahhahaha) if surrounded by pestering-don't-listen-to-instructions-or-anything-I-say-kids
Teachers can seem to be friendly and cooperating with everyone but not really in reality
I will miss Palm Sunday and the little march that SMC always do because I am here and not there

I miss a lot of things.

But I can handle it all :D ......

What a day

2010-02-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Got up early around 7.30 am, was panicked a bit because I thought I was late for school then realize that it is a Saturday and no kelas ganti hehhehe. Went back to sleep but the rest was waking up as well so I woke up to but didn't leave the bed until 11 am (ahhahaa) (was reading Five Find-Outers and Dog) (and fell asleep again for a while).

Got up from bed at 11 am and then went to get ready to go to lunch (hehhehe). Have lunch and drank 2 glasses of sirap limau (i'm still looking for kit chai ping), went back to hostel feeling very full and tired. Went online for a while, drank Vico and fell asleep.

Woke up sweaty (very hot here) and went to have my bath and wash my clothes since Wednesday (I was busy). All that done, went online again. Read a blog, from start. She is a wonderful person and woman. Tabik tabik!!

Ate maggie mee and drank Vico again, online again. Want to read the next Five Find-Outers and Dog.

Wanted to write something here about H but no, I won't.

February already

2010-02-01T19:54:00.002+08:00

And it is Monday too. So what happened today? Let me tell you, lure you into my world muahahhaha ok ok....

So as per usual, woke up early at 5 am, shower, made Vico drink for breakfast (which is not usual actually), dressed and went down before 6.30. Last week when the taxi driver was on leave, we (well actually me) went down much earlier at 6.15 or so to catch a taxi. So this morning, those other people ask why we didn't go down early today. But I don't know, maybe I am reading too much into the way she is asking the question, that I feel it was actually to meant something about me. Paranoid I think me. Hmm.

Got into the taxi, went to school, got my lesson plan for English later that day checked, was told to just follow the scheme of work for my English lesson plan, which I didn't really understand as I still need to know which unit they have covered up to Friday, went to the assembly, got class relief for Year 1 after the assembly, class Pendidikan Moral, went there but was told to enter Pendidikan Agama class Year 1 instead. I didn't know what to do for discussion so I just discussed about nilai-nilai moral. The kids were noisy even after many times asking them to be quiet, I shushed them and that made them quiet for a while, was glad that the time was over soon (hehehehe) as I didn't know what else to do to occupy them, I could have made them draw their pets and colour it, but at that time when the idea came, it was 5 minutes more till end of the lesson time. So that was my taste of Year 1 kids. Then I went back to the staff room, marked the Maths Division worksheet, made me dizzy, went to eat, came back and marked all of the worksheets. Some did a fairly good job, some didn't, some have the answers but no workings, some were very careless. I am now wondering how to make sure that all know how to do division before we go into the next topic which is Fractions (argghhhhh).

After that, I checked back my English lesson plan, made small notes of what and how I wanted to do the lesson, saw that I wrote word cards but didn't prepare any word cards, went to class, I started the lesson this time, got into reading and asked the pupils to read again. They read fairly well, though I think some only moved their mouths but didn't actually do any reading out loud. Should have asked them to read group by group. I think I rushed my lesson there especially the practising of reading sentences. The activity was for them to copy the sentences into their exercise book. They finished early and so became restless and noisy. My cooperating teacher came in then and gave them work to do. She also ended the lesson (giving me points on how to do it). I still have more to learn!!

So that was it for the school but then came the best part. At one o'clock, A said they wanted to go and tapau food, so I said ok, me and Kak went to sign out and proceeded to go and wait for them at the bus stop but then Kak said to just wait for them at the taxi stand in front of the hospital. So we went there. Nothing was said about anyone being late or whatever, but when the 2 came there, after calling Kak, A asked if there were any taxi that passed by, I answered one but we didn't flag it down because we were waiting for you guys. Then suddenly A said it you girls want to go home quick, its fine if you go first and take the taxi. So I said but then it would be expensive if there were only 2 of us. Much better if there were 4 of us to split the fare. No it depends A said. Depends on what exactly?? What is she trying to say? Fine really if I really want to go back then I will take the taxi first but would it be fair to the rest of them?

Don't really know what is happening, so I will just ignore it.

So far So good

2010-01-26T19:14:00.003+08:00

In relation with my practicum. I went into my class with the cooperating teacher yesterday and taught the second period. I lost track of time again. And found out that most of the pupils could not produce simple sentences complete with the articles and so on. Some just copy the question right back on the answer column and some has trouble differentiating between 'as' and 'has'.

Today went into the Maths class on my own, I didn't know I was supposed to go in with my other cooperating teacher hehehe. It was the last 2 periods so I wanted to make sure that I did not do the same mistake I did yesterday. During the lesson, I unfortunately gave the pupils wrong instructions and I only realized it after they have sat in their groups ahahha to cover up my mistake I asked them to do it again as they took a long time to form the groups (ahahhaha) but in the end the new groups were formed and the activity I had in mind was able to be done. It was just me giving them Mentos sweets to divide among themselves. They were happy to get those sweets.

Then came the part for them to do the work, I called out 3 girls to do the questions on the whiteboard and only 1 could do it though it did take a while. The other 2 have trouble, maybe because they don't know their multiplication well enough or a bit confused about division. It gave me a bit of a headache thinking of how to help them and how to move forward. In the end I have to give them the questions as homework even though my plan was for us to it together and only 3 questions as homework. I have to check those with them tomorrow, but its only a 30 minutes class.

I came back to the hostel, ate my lunch and just felt so sleepy and tired. After reading the newspaper that I bought in school, I took a nap, planning to wake up after a 30 minutes nap but ended up sleeping till 5.30 (urgh wasted such good time but good sleep anyway hehehe). A shower, made coffee and took out some snacks, opened up my laptop, went to FB and read some messages.

Day One

2010-01-18T17:01:00.003+08:00

Went early to the school, arrived around 6.15 am. It was still dark and the guard would not let us in as it was still too early. The teachers there arrive between 7am and 7.25 am. We have to rearrange with the taxi driver again.

Anyway, the PK1 met with us and told us that they have never received any letters stating our arrival and what should we teach there at that school. We gave her Puan Js' number and later found out that the practicum letters were faxed during the school holidays or when they had some renovation going on in the school, which then would mean some papers got misplaced.

Anyway, since the GB was out having a big meeting, we were given a place inside the staff room which was a bit crowded as there were 10 new teachers just posted to the same school. The big desk table meant for one teacher had to be shared by two teachers. And since this school is a mixed or sharing a building with another school, most things are put away into lockers or brought back home. Nothing was left on the desks. Which means that if we have any teaching aids or books or homework's or tests we have to bring it back with us to the hostel.

Talking about going back to the hostel, we had a little experiment after school today. We walked all the way to the LRT station. At first we wanted to try out taking a bus but other teachers told us that it could take hours to wait for a bus. Another suggested walking to a place where we can also take a bus, but she forgot what the number of the bus that needs to be taken. But at the bus stop, there were two other classmates there and we ended up walking together to the LRT station. I changed my shoes to my white slippers and ended up with blisters hahahhaa.

I do agree with another teacher saying that we might as well take the cab and since there are four of us, the rate would be cheaper than taking the bus and lrt. And if we have many things to carry some more, it would be better to take a cab.

We have not received any timetables yet, maybe tomorrow we will. Then the lesson planing and teaching aids making will commence hehhee. For now, I will read up on lesson planning and maybe some CS Maths reading and try not to think too much about Honey.

ps: I messaged him last night asking him to wish me luck for today. No reply.

Saturday and one more day to...

2010-01-16T16:41:00.003+08:00

Practicum....a bit nervous and excited. More nervous actually. I have all the pens and books that I would need and if need more things, easily can go and look for it. Have to be at the school early around 7.15 to 7.30 am for morning assembly/round up. So give and take the time needed to be there, have to wake up at least 5 am. Get ready, have coffee and biscuits or soup (whichever to my liking) then at 6 am we have asked the taxi driver to collect us. We will be waiting at the guard house. Taxi from here to the school is Rm7.00 more or less, hopefully less since the taxi driver said there are no traffic jams around that time. Will be bringing along a note book, pens, marker pens (maybe not the whole pencil case), the record book, water and biscuits and have to rethink about the sport shoes. Since we haven't actually figured out how we are going to get back to the hostel from the school. Thinking about walking from the school to the lrt station but seems so far away in the Google Map. Also thinking about getting a bus to the hostel but don't know which bus to take hehehhe. So have to think about this more.

Hmmm I have found and bought a water kettle just like Kak Ida, meaning the same price and style but different brand. Hers is Elba mine is Faber. The name reminded me of the Faber medical at the hospital back home. Anyway, it is Rm 59.00 and divided into four since there are four of us here in this room, each need to pay Rm14.75. So far only P has paid, the other two did not even mention anything about it. If they want to use it then they have to pay. Just in case the water kettle does not last long, then at least I won't be losing so much money. They have it easy anyway, since last semester, most of the things used here belongs to me and Honey. Well the printer belongs to Honey, the ink I bought it. The wire extension belongs to me, the dish washer/cleaner. The padlock and keys my mum bought for me. The brush to clean the bathroom and toilet also belongs to me, I lost the one last semester (someone stole it) and the new one this semester I bought it and I cleaned both the toilet and bathroom. Any thanks from them or even acknowledgment? Nope. I don't want thanks actually just acknowledgement.

Look here in this room now, it was cleaned or rather the floor been swept only once while we have been here for 2 weeks now. Would the others make a move? Maybe C but even she is now so much engrossed with her laptop. Urgh....

Now there was something that had happened earlier this week, Monday to be exact. That time our lift was broken, so if someone forgot something they have to take the stairs. And it would be very tiresome if you are staying at the very top floor. I am staying at the very top floor, 6th floor. From our campus building, we have to take about 3 floor high kind of stairs too. So lots of stairs. Now, we have an assignment that was supposed to be passed up last Friday 8th but because C was busy with her FB she did not finish it on time and we had to pass it up on Monday. Monday she left early for class. I went afterwards. When I was at the canteen, she mesaged me about it, I also forgot all about it (hey I did my part during the holidays, she was finishing it up so she should be on to it isn't it?). Anyway, since I was already at the campus building (canteen) I sent a messaged to E asking her help to bring it along, since when I left she was still there, she was the only one there.

When she arrived at class I asked her about it and she said 'Oh I didn't read the message" meaning she didn't know that I have asked for her help so means she does not have the assignment with her. So Ok I thought, I just have to go and get it then later during break. Now during break, at 10am, I mentioned to the class about going back to the hostel, if it was ok to go back to get the assignment. E was also in the class and I am very sure she heard me, since everyone else I asked afterwards heard me, why didn't she?? So anyway, after asking and telling them my reason to go back to the hostel, off I went. On the way, I met C and she asked me where I was going so I told her to get our assignmet. She laughed and said that the book is with E. E had it all along. I asked why didn't you tell me or E tell me that? She just laughed.

At that time I sooooo really wanted to strangle her. I also wanted to strangle and chocked E. I kept mum and went to the toilet. I could feel tears forming and feel so very much betrayed. The thing is this, if our hostel was only next door I wouldn't mind it at all but this is the time when the lift was broken, so go down 3 floor high of stairs and go up to the 6th floor, the go down and up the stairs again for nothing?? What if I have asthma or something? Did they even consider that? Did they have so much fun making fun of other people and playing them around? My answer would be yes and yes since they did that to me. I was so mad at that time I had to call someone (Honey) to just talk and ask him what I should do since at that time like I said I soo wanted to strangle them both, but E especially.

Honey said to just let it go, ignore it and go back to class pretending like nothing happened. So I did. And both of them did not say anything to me about it, nor did I mentioned it to them. I did not even looked at them then.

Until now actually I still feel a bit of residual urge to strangle the both of them. They just irk me soo much. They are both adults but act like little bratty kids. I just have to ignore it all and keep my focus on my studies and practicum and teaching aids and lesson plans.

Tolerance and acceptance right. Yeah but sometimes I just have to vent it out. I can't keep it all inside, it will eat me alive.

Sad note on Thursday night, a friend from Matriculation passed away because of heart attack. We were the same age. We took the same course during university but he was in UKM and I was in UMS.

Nell, rest in peace.

When You're Gone...

2010-01-09T16:23:00.004+08:00

Listening to Avril right now. Hope this song won't become true.

Anyway, I don't know why, and I regret it. I said something which I should not have said. I said it in a moment of ..I don't know...surprise? Shocked? Losing my one channel of connection? I said it and I was sorry then. And I said sorry too.

We'll see what happen next.

"...the words I need to hear, to get me through the day, and make it okay...."

"I Miss You"

re-edit: I'm forgiven :D so happy.

I've re-checked all my info online as well, don't want to be hacked.

I have to stop jumping to conclusions!!

And again, tolerance and acceptance towards people that annoys the heck out of you. Tolerance and acceptance towards people that enjoys making fun of you.

Tolerance and acceptance.

How it Goes....

2010-01-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

Met Honey on Wednesday night, went to accompany him to buy colour printer for his company. Arrived at destination before 9pm, was there till before 10 plus pm, a short stop at the convenience store for some drinks and biscuits (for my dinner that night). Went to his place to get the cooling pad for my laptop and the CD to install the printer in my laptop. A kiss. Sent me back before 10.30 pm, well actually arriving at my place at exactly 10.30pm. Curfew = 11 pm.

So that was that. Short but I'm happy that I get to meet him and hear him and see that he is well.

He is kinda like chipsmore, sometimes you see him, sometimes you don't. Sometimes you hear from him, sometimes you don't...............for quite a while.

But really, I was so happy to see him, to hear from him that day, and I am thankful for that chance. Thanks for thinking of me, thanks for bringing me out and spend a few precious hours with you. *HUGS*

So that was on Wednesday.

Today after class, 3 of us went out to hunt for some very much needed music books. We got Year 1, 2, 3, 4 and 6. All the ones without cds, the activity book. I really need these books as I have absolutely no idea what to have for activites during music classes. These books will give me some ideas on how to go on about it. Yeah good haul for the day. The others say that there is another music book which the lecturer recommended we get but all the bookstore we went into said they no longer carry that book or something like that. This book that the lecturer recommended has cds in it for each year. I guess we will be book hunting again soon. But again, pretty good haul for today. We walked a lot, but then I ate quite a big dinner :P. Ahahhaa owh well, I can do more walking tomorrow. Gonna go and look for the printer ink. I think I will ask the others to pay as well.....hmmmm have to think about this. If its pictures, it doesn't come out so good. Hmmm anyhow, still am thankful that I have a workable printer, from Honey too :D

Forgot to mention

2009-12-22T12:41:00.001+08:00

heheheh am watching Zombieland online..funny movie...pity its not so clear and crisp. But oh well be thankful :D

Thankful

2009-12-22T12:18:00.004+08:00

My grandma is now out from the ward, had the MRI last Saturday and the doctor said that she will have to have an operation and have a screw inserted. Scary. The operation will be sometime next year, maybe in January. I will be back in KL by that time. I hope everything will be fine, the operation will be going on smoothly and she will have a smooth and easy recovery. For now she has to wear the neck brace.

Last Saturday as well, I got a new laptop or is it notebook. It is a Compaq Presario CQ40 621AU. It is light though not as light as the Acer Aspire One 10.1" or 11.6" but light enough. It is not the colour that I wanted, it only come in black colour. I wanted blue or red as were the choices available with the Acer Aspire. I wanted a small one, easier for me to carry around. But its light enough. Honestly, it is not what I wanted, but it is what I needed. Between the two, need trumps up want.

I have to be thankful that I have a laptop now. I have to be thankful that my grandma is ok.

I am thankful that I have a working laptop, and I am thankful that my grandma is ok.

Soon it will be Christmas, so being thankful I should be, as everyday I should be.

Tiredness

2009-12-02T20:01:00.002+08:00

Feel so tired I could go to sleep now till morning.

Kept grandma company from around 7 pm on Dec 1 till 7 pm plus Dec 2. That night I did not sleep well; I dozed off then suddenly was awakened by other patients. There is one patient there that kept on moaning and moaning from night till afternoon. I saw that my grandma might not be sleeping well as well, but when I asked her, she said she slept quite well..hmm...good then hehhee.

I was not really tired of course when I started, I read HP until near 2 am I think, then I thought I better go to sleep now as they might want to turn down the lights but like I said..did not slept well. Oh well.

Tonight is J's turn. Hope she gets a good night sleep and nothing bad happen during her turn to keep grandma company. Yeah she can do it!!

And grandma can do it too...she will be happy, healthy and safe always!! :D

My grandma is not well

2009-12-01T12:07:00.003+08:00

She has just been admitted and will be having a CT Scan later at 2 pm.

My mom and my grandma went to see the doctor this morning and only my mom came back home. She said my grandma was admitted immediately and given a neck brace. Its got something to do with her C1 and C2 spinal cord or something.

My mom and my sister went back to the hospital again with lunch and stuff for grandma. I will be with grandma later this evening, look after her and keep her company this whole night.

I really hope everything will be all right.